Colleen Thompson
28
Taking the first step and
letting go of old securities,
means unlocking the door
for my inner child allowing
her to grow, heal and be all
that she never thought she
could be. "The Lord is close
to the brokenhearted and
saves those who are crushed
in spirit" - Psalm 34:18
July 13, 1997

Amy Medina - Something Fishy
27
It is not a broken mirror telling
lies, but my own head reflecting
images of self-hate back to me
through its looking glass. I am
the only one who can find the
answers to the magic and
power of fixing what has been
broken for a long time.
July 13, 1997

Aimee M. Harms
28
The ED is not your fault,
but it is your fault if you
hold on to it. Regain your
strength and conquer the
inner demons! Be your
own best friend and be
good to yourself! You
deserve all that life has
to offer! Best of luck to
all of you!!!
July 14, 1997

Paula MacLean
24
Recovery is worthwhile for the
happy future we deserve. The
road may seem like a long
hard struggle, but the continued
fighting to recovery is something
that we so rightly deserve.
Always remember you are
not alone and love is just
a phone call away!
July 14, 1997

Anna Campion
25
Just do it! There will never be a
"right time" to begin recovery.
Recovering from an eating disorder
is the most challenging task that
I have ever undertaken. There are
many risks involved in the recovery
process, but they are worth it! Being
gentle with yourself is important in
preventing slips from becoming relapses.
The opportunities offered through
recovering are endless.
July 15, 1997

Debbie Fradin
30
I REFUSE to give up
faith in beating this
killer anorexia. Even
if I go to my grave
screaming, "Give me
that can of Ensure!"
July 18, 1997

Michelle Comeau
27
They that wait upon the Lord
shall renew their strength;
they shall mount up with
wings as eagles; they shall
run, and not be weary; and
they shall walk, and not faint.
Isaiah 41:31
July 30, 1997

Adrienne Marie Furney
17
Good day's can let you down and
bad day's can make you strong
in the end! I've been through both
I understand. Setting goals for
ourselves with a positive picture
and believing that every challenge
is worth the embrace. We must
stay on track not for everybody
else, but for ourselves because
we are terrific!
July 31, 1997

Kaci K.
13
Fighting anorexia is hard, but I
will do it. This verse has helped me
and I hope will help others. "Surely
you know that you are God's temple
and that God's spirit lives within you.
So if anyone destroys God's temple,
God will destroy him. For God's temple
is holy, and you yourselves are his temple."
1 Corin. 3:16-17
July 31, 1997

Audrey Bell
23
If you believe in yourself anything
is possible. I will not allow anorexia
to be the cause of my death. I will
fight no matter what it takes for
myself and for all others suffering
from an eating disorder. I also want
my best friend, Debbie Fradin, to
know that I love her. May we fight
this fight together always.
August 1, 1997

Lisette Frediani
23
The art of being wise
is the art of knowing
what to overlook.
August 2, 1997

Amalye Brown
14
Some of us have wings, some of us
fly and land on recovery. To walk
takes strength, commitment, time
and energy. But to fly takes courage,
hope and self-confidence. Which
ever way we choose to go, it will be
a battle. I did not ask for this long
walk, this high and frightening climb,
but I know that I must fight on.
August 2, 1997

Carrie Little
13
I wish there was a
cure! Making
myself eat is worth
it, cause I wanna live!
August 2, 1997

Sue Homan
52
There is so much
beauty on the Wall -
it gives me hope that
there is recovery from
compulsive overeating,
and that I, too, will
find it.
August 6, 1997

Jennifer Clark
20
The road to recovery is long and difficult.
Sometimes you feel like you have been
swallowed by a giant fish and it's eating
you alive. The only thing that you have to
remember is that you are the only cure.
No one else can save you but you. We,
the victims, are important, we count, and
we are important. There are so many
things that matter in this world and WE
have to remember that we are one of them!
August 7, 1997

Laurie Melhado
38
For me, recovery is not so much
a time or a place, but rather a
journey and knowing I am willing
to take it. These websites have
become an important part of my
recovery, thank you very much
to Colleen and Amy. Remember,
there is always someone out there
who loves you when you cannot
love yourself.
August 8, 1997

Lois Anne MacLean
53
God Grant Me The Serenity
To Accept The Things I Cannot
Change, Courage To Change
The Things I Can, And Wisdom
To Know The Difference.
August 8, 1997

Katie L.
15
WE CAN DO THIS!
You've just gotta
have faith. I
believe Lord...help
my unbelief.
August 10, 1997

Melissa Caviston
19
There is something to be
gained from commitment.
There are rewards for
staying when you would
rather leave. And there
is something to be said
for running up that hill
when you would rather
slide down it. -NIKE
August 11, 1997

Debbi J.
28
"I can do all things
through Christ who
strengthens me"
Philippians 4:13
August 11, 1997

Kathryn Pascucci
15
I hate anorexia nervosa, but yet
again I love it so much, but I will
not let it kill me. Life is precious,
and everyone is worth fighting for
even if you don't believe it. We all
need to learn to love ourselves for
who we are and not what the eating
disorder makes us. God will guide
you and help you, look for Him,
He is there to offer you hope. Have
faith in Him, He is always with you.
August 12, 1997

Holly J.
22
The outside is only a
wrapper. It is the
inside that counts.
August 13, 1997

Meris Spence
29
Relapses are a part
of recovery. Have
the courage to be
imperfect!
August 15, 1997

Rhiannon Jones
20
I turned 20 on August 8th, there was
a time I never thought I would make it
this far. I will make it another 20 years,
we are all strong, when we want to be.
"I bless you all...more life"
Angels in America
Be gentle with yourselves, you
are beautiful creatures...all of you.
August 16, 1997

Eryn Yates
15
Whether you think
you can or think
you can't, you're
right.---Henry Ford
August 20, 1997

Aimee Lynn-Stevenson
25
With God, all things are possible - even
recovery. The Lord is my strength and can
be yours too, for His strength is Perfect!
When the going gets tough, remember
"This To Shall Pass!" Keep working the
recovery road because you are worth it!
Thanks to my family, friends, and the Lord!!
I have found my joy in life and I want to
live! Praise His name and see it happen.
August 21, 1997

Lily Frost
50
If company in sorrow
is any comfort, you
have some here.
August 22, 1997

Dottie Bluford
26
"I love you Mommy" are four simple words
from a beautiful miracle. I almost destroyed
my chances to hear those four words due to
my "ED". I fight the battle every day and
dream of my miracles future. Those four words
give me strength, hope, and determination to be
a survivor. There is a lot of light in my miracles
big blue eyes, that giving up is just not an issue.
Loving myself, my child, and life is the issue.
You can do it, " We Can Do It". God Speed!
August 22, 1997

Lara Alper
28
Recovery is a daily
struggle. Taking small
steps makes this
worthwhile process
easier.
August 22, 1997

Kelle Reach
19
You gain strength, courage, and
confidence in every experience
in which you stop to look fear
in the face - Eleanor Roosevelt
I have faced my eating disorder
and have emerged with more
strength, courage, and
confidence than I had before -
I am stronger than this disease
and will continue in faith.
August 25, 1997

Lynn Killins
24
The sky isn't always blue,
the sun doesn't always shine.
It's alright to fall apart...
sometimes. - Robert Miles
Make the most of yourself,
for that is all there is of you.
-Ralph Waldo Emerson
August 26, 1997

Tanya Rene Curran
21
Your life is up to you.
Life provides the canvas;
you do the painting.
Take charge of your life
or someone else will.
- author unknown
August 28, 1997

Melissa Brown
28
You learn an eating disorder
over time. It takes a while to
unlearn it. Be patient with
yourself. Forgive yourself,
as you forgive others.
August 29, 1997

Stephanie Dionne
20
I don't know if I qualify as a
survivor yet; guess I'm still a
victim. After going through the
recovery/relapse roller coaster
several times, I can vouch for
the importance of relying on loved
ones for strength and support.
Never give up!
August 29, 1997

Kell H.
18
If you look inside and
have the want to
recover you will rise
above it. It may take
time, but have faith!
September 2, 1997

Kelley Brockman
27
Recovery for me means taking care
of myself one day at a time. I am
learning to pamper and respect myself;
to do what I need to do for me. Recovery
is not simple; sometimes it seems like it
would be easier to be active in my eating
disorder; but I remind myself that in the
long run, my worst day sober from my
eating disorder is better than my best day
active in my eating disorder. I might not
be responsible for my eating disorder,
but I am responsible for my recovery.
September 4, 1997

Samantha Tytell
14
I have but one thing
to say: I am so glad
I am here today.
September 5, 1997

Carey Guthrie
18
No one is hopeless
whose hope is in
God. There is always
hope and power from
the One above to
overcome ED!
September 6, 1997

Malia Fujimoto
29
Mirror Mirror on the wall!
When will I be the fairest
one of all? How do I make
through each day just
feeling the way I do?
<hugs and prayers>
September 7, 1997

Renee A.
25
Today I have a power greater than
myself to guide me through His will
and shows me what I can do for the
person still suffering. Today I have a
choice to live, love, and honor my life.
Today I can pick up the phone before
I pick up the food. Today I can sit
still and feel those feelings once
numbed by the food. Today I have
a "room" to go to when I'm struggling
with all of the above. OA - Keep
coming back. It works when you work
it, so work it, you're worth it!
September 7, 1997

Tonya Crossland
26
I can do all things
through Christ who
strengthens me.
Philippians 4:13
September 9, 1997

Robyn Shumer
23
Give yourself the gift of
freeing yourself from your
disorder. You can be your
own best-friend and don't
need your eating disorder.
I recovered after 11 years,
you can too!!! I promise!
September 9, 1997

Abbie Kephart
16
That which does not kill you makes
you stronger. I want to thank my
mom, dad, and brother Chase.
Without their love and support I
don't know where I would be today.
My recovery was based on "listen
to my body". I can do that now.
Thank you again Mom, I love
you, you saved my life.
September 10, 1997

Tiffany Gust
18
Lord, help me to
remember that
nothing will happen
to me that together
you and I can't handle.
September 10, 1997

Hiedi Eaton
18
I have lost a dear friend to the
hands of anorexia and I understand
the grief of losing a loved one and
the long road to recovery. I
understand. Remember, no matter
how long the road, I pray that you
will find the rainbow, not the never
ending darkness. There is truly a
rainbow waiting for you, with open
arms, waiting to love you.
September 11, 1997

Keri Richardson
21
Recovering from anorexia has been
the hardest thing I have EVER done.
I am proud to say that I have finally
reclaimed my life. I can enjoy love,
family, friends, and what really matters
in life. I fight every day, but I know this
is what is right for ME. I want to live to
have children and grandchildren. Ann,
FIGHT this. You can do it - you are
never alone. Trust in God.
September 12, 1997

Jennifer W.
21
Recovery is possible.
You are stronger than
the guilt inside your
head.
September 12, 1997

Kathryn Ann Karnstedt
19
I can do all things through Christ
who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13
God grant me the serenity to accept
the things I cannot change, courage to
change the things I can and wisdom to
know the difference. We can all fight
our eating disorder and win.
Good Luck and Take Care.
September 13, 1997

Chrysty Rusch
21
Never give up ten
minutes before the
miracle.
September 14, 1997

Cortney Lofler
16
There are no quick fixes but with Christ
there is hope and healing. It is hard
to overcome an eating disorder but with
God's help anything is possible Phil.4:13
When you feel you can't take it anymore,
take it to the LORD. Everyone who is
fighting I hope you overcome your eating
disorder. I want to let everyone know it
is worth it to fight.
September 14, 1997

Amber Entzel
15
I hate making myself purge but yet,
it's the only way I know to stay thin.
Looks really shouldn't matter as
much as they do to me, but we all
know they do. God's strength is the
thing that get's through the good days.
I now that if I didn't have Him, I'd be
dead by now. So just remember to
always look heavenward for hope,
love, and support!!!
September 15, 1997

Nicole D.
18
I never in a million years
thought I could stop. But
I did and I love myself
even more now. Even if I
don't have the perfect body,
I have my health back.
September 17, 1997

Christina Kazanas
24
Scales are for fish...
NOT WOMEN!
September 18, 1997

Aly Stealey
17
I am continually amazed at how easy
it is to live; to just live and love and
feel. However, my anorexia has not
been completely banished. I believe
it will always be there, tucked just
behind my ear to remind me of how
strong I am and how much others love
me and exactly what is important in
life. But I can say for sure that I now
have anorexia; it doesn't have me.
Thank you to the Renfrew Center
for all your help.
September 17, 1997

Tanya C.
"Daddy's Girl"
14
Sometimes I forget to acknowledge
the little girl inside of me that is
hurt so badly by my eating disorder.
So, I am taking the time to take
care of her now. Somewhere deep
inside, we all still long to chase
butterflies, dance in flower beds,
and sing to the stars. Take time
today to celebrate the child inside.
September 19, 1997

Em Jay
16
Don't give up there is
a tomorrow. Getting
there is hard, but I've
seen my tomorrow and
everyday I get that bit
closer and you can too.
September 21, 1997

Erica Martin
21
Never give up!
Recovery is worth
fighting for.
September 21, 1997

Alison Hackney
43
Never give up.
Commitment and
discipline are the
essence of freedom.
September 23, 1997

Kelly Lowe
22
For me recovery is worth it, because
I know I am worth it. It is a long
hard journey, but with my higher
power, I am willing to keep fighting
and beat the anorexia that wants to
kill me. I am a strong woman and I
know I can do it! We all can, we just
have to believe and keep the faith.
September 23, 1997

Jennifer Hewitt
19
You may not be able to
comprehend the possibility
of letting go of something
that has so much "control"
over you. But in the end,
YOU are the one who
possess all of the control.
September 23, 1997

Claudia A.
30
Recovery is one day at a time, one
meal at a time, one minute at a time.
Thank God for little successes! Taking
time to appreciate the "baby" steps,
the little good things in life, learning
to assert myself instead of using my
eating disorder add strength to my
recovery on a daily basis. I am ever
so grateful for each day "sober"
from the misery of bulimia.
Keep the faith!
September 24, 1997

Elaina Thompson
18
The Lord is my strength
and shield. It is for
freedom that Christ has
set us FREE, stand firm
then and do not let
yourselves be burdened
again by a yoke of slavery.
Galatians 5:1
September 24, 1997

Courtney Sneddon
17
Take that first step,
it's worth it!
September 25, 1997

Kathleen Jones
17
Every time you starve yourself
or purge in some way you are
allowing your abuser to take
over your life one more time.
Anything's possible, just try!!!
God is always there for you,
but you must allow him to
be there. He is your savior.
September 27, 1997

Nathalie Murphy
16
Through the clouds the sun broke, filtering
through like golden strands of silk ribbon.
At this point hope welled inside me and the
need to try became clear. I have suffered
from bulimia since I was 13 and recently
in the last two months I have been suffering
from anorexia as well. I know now that it is
time for me to take a stand and fight against
my illness and with the help of people around
I like many other sufferers out there will
overcome this.
September 27, 1997

Rebecca Lehman
17
I may not have made it
one-hundred percent yet,
but there is a light at the end.
I will beat this and I must
beat it. For me and my body,
not anyone else - otherwise
it's still winning.
October 2, 1997

Andie Shepherd
20
I always wanted the "perfect look".
Yellow nails, hair falling out and
cheekbones showing were not it.
I tried a different approach, healthy
eating. I thank God everyday for
giving me the strength to get this
far, and I pray every night to make
it further. God bless all of you who
had the courage to make it to the
"wall of courage" and I pray that
your quest for happiness will
continue. Good luck and love to all.
October 3, 1997

Debby W.
34
If you are still alive
then God hasn't
given up on you.
October 7, 1997

Emma Bell
19
Courage is fear having
said it's prayers. Say good
bye to the yesterdays and
focus only on the today's.
October 7, 1997

Michelle Bohman
28
This life breaks all of
us--but the truly courageous
become strong at the broken
places.--Ernest Hemingway
October 8, 1997

Miranda Rooke
23
Something so powerful and
controlling it stole seven
years of my life, time that I
will never be able to get back.
It's not going to take any
more of my life!
October 8, 1997

Keren B.
20
When people think they are the better,
it is them who is the lesser, for not
noticing other's rainbows. Love yourself,
you are worth it! Never let anyone tell
you otherwise, not even those screaming
voices in your head. Love yourself and
learn to be free. Everyday continue to
fight because if you give in, you are
surrendering to all of those voices.
You are a survivor, be proud of it!
October 10, 1997

Christina S.
18
I wish everyone could
step inside the hell of
an eating disorder so
that they could
understand. I love my
friends, but I'm tired of
their worrying. I'm okay
now, and I'm glad of it.
October 10, 1997

Janet Hartsuff
31
With God, all
things are
possible.
October 10, 1997

Jackie R.
20
Recovery is not about getting
rid of your fears. It's about
moving forward in spite of
them. Let the Lord be your
strength and your guide and
you shall overcome. May the
Lord bless you all.
October 10, 1997

Allison Sztajer
17
After three years of battling
with this "monster" anorexia
I realize something. Never
give up the struggle! I've been
told that so many times and I
try to never give up. Every
one has the power to beat this.
Never give up! Take care.
October 10, 1997

Melony S.
32
Resolve to find thyself;
and to know that he who
finds himself; loses his
misery. - Matthew Arnold
October 10, 1997

Vanessa Gardner
34
The single most
powerful investment
we can ever make
in life is investment
in ourselves.
October 10, 1997

Kimberly Burns
21
I may be a long way
to the end of the path
of recovery but I will
try my hardest.
Good luck to all of you!
October 11, 1997

Kathryn Wilkins
20
To everyone fighting an eating disorder is
hard but in the end it's worth it. Keep
fighting you can make it. "Even youths
grow tired and weary and young men
stumble and fall but those who trust in
the Lord will renew their strength. They
will soar on wings like eagles and they
will run and not grow weary and they
shall walk and not faint." - Isaish 40:31.
Trust in the Lord, He will help you to
overcome this because He loves you.
October 12, 1997

Andrea Smith
17
Fighting anorexia is
the hardest thing in my
life I have ever had to
do. If it weren't for God
and prayer, I know I
wouldn't have made it
as far as I have.
October 12, 1997

 
Kathleen Loveland
32
I wish I could say I was in recovery
but I continue to battle daily just as
I have for the past 20 years. I
read the wall and it made me feel
good knowing so many people can
understand what it is like to have
an eating disorder. I won't give up!
October 12, 1997

Carol C.
16
Never will I leave you;
never will I forsake you
- Hebrews 13:5 God is
faithful and will never
leave you! Through Him
all things are possible,
even recovery! Stay
strong and fight. All of
you wonderful people
with EDs, you are in
my prayers.
October 12, 1997

Deas Simpson
27
In talking about eating disorders
we sometimes over look those
males like myself that suffer
from this shame filled disease.
Sometimes the shame of being a
male with an E.D. seems
unbearable. It's hard to have hope
after fighting your whole life with
this disease but the only thing I
guess I can do is keep up the
fight till the battle is won.
October 14, 1997

Kate Anderson
15
Never doubt.
Yesterday is history.
Tomorrow is a dream.
Today is what counts.
October 14, 1997

Victoria Selkirk
17
Please, God, give me your
strength to fight this demon.
I want out of this seemingly
endless, consuming cloud of
darkness. I want to be free
again..to reclaim my life and
being...please help me.
October 16, 1997

Anna L.
18
Live each minute as an hour
and each hour as a day.
Take the time for life. Learn
to live not die day by day.
October 19, 1997

Ashley Hane
21
As I continue my recovery from
anorexia and bulimia, I thank God
for the strength He's given me to
fight this thing. For those of you
out there like me that are still
struggling to recover, let's stick
together! Keep up the hard work.
October 19, 1997

Cindy Martin
29
I deserve to take up
this space. I matter,
and so do you.
October 20, 1997

Laura Szeligowski
16
The only boundaries
are in the mind.
October 20, 1997

Rebekah Cushing
16
I waited patiently for the Lord; and
He inclined to me, and heard my cry.
He also brought me out of a horrible
pit and set my feet upon a rock and
established my steps. He has put a
new song in my mouth. -Psalm 40:1-3
A horrible pit I definitely was in! He
has delivered me of 6 years of
anorexia/bulimia and I am now free
from the hand of the enemy. Thank
you Jesus for setting me free!!!
October 20, 1997

Amanda Rene Edwards
18
Believe in yourself
and you shall
conquer anything.
October 23, 1997

Debbie Jean
38
I was reading the wall, didn't
plan on putting my name on.
But, to see the ages of most
of the people astonished me!
I have battled E.D. since
age 8, for 30 years now. I have
learned one thing: Never give
up - recovery is always within
your reach. May God bless
you all.
October 23, 1997

Jennifer Lynn Hoie
28
I am no longer afraid of Hell.
I now pray, "Lord, save me
from myself and the dragon
within." The dragon has
taken 14 years of my life. I
need to live... Lord, please
hear my cries for help.
October 24, 1997

Michele Rowland
26
Don't you know that you
yourselves are God's
temple and that God's
Spirit lives in you?
- 1Corinthians 3:16
October 24, 1997

Pamm Wiley
38
What hasn't killed me has
made me stronger - I'm
not going to give up now.
New discoveries come
every day - take each
day and cherish it.
Be gentle with yourself!
October 25, 1997

Heather Tone
18
There are victories of the soul
and spirit. Because of these,
sometimes even when you
lose, you win - Ellie Wiesel
Thank you everyone who
went through this with me,
especially Momere, Dad, and
Josh. I love you!
October 25, 1997

Cynthia Clancy
27
Don't be afraid to change
or listen to the voice
within, the power to
recover is inside you!
October 27, 1997

Gianna LaRose
20
The caged bird sings with a
fearful trill of things unknown
but longed for still and his
tune is heard on the distant
hill for the caged bird sings
of freedom. - Maya Angelou
October 27, 1997

Nina A.
32
I must gather all of
my inner strength
and be strong- for
my own sake - I will
learn how!
October 27, 1997

Stacey Nance
14
Hang in there. I have had an ED
since sixth grade and I'm a
freshman in high school now and
I face it everyday of my life. It
comes back and haunts me everyday.
It's hard to stop and Lord knows
how much I enjoyed it and the way
it made me feel. But please get help
and and talk about it to someone.
I'm glad I caught it when I did.
October 28, 1997

Courtney Brooks
18
That which does not kill me, will
only make me stronger - Nietzsche
Too many people care for me to turn
my back and lose the battle. I may
never be completely better. I'll never
eat butter, but slowly I'll learn to cope
and maybe eat a dessert without guilt.
I love you family, coaches, and Kim.
May God help us all stray from
the dark and run to Him.
October 28, 1997

Colleen Bradbury
22
Each day when you look in the
mirror, believe in yourself and
be reminded that you are stronger
than this demon. Ask yourself if it
is worth your life and the lives of
your loved ones whom your death
would affect forever. I fight this
everyday like too many others, but
I remind myself of the ones I love so
much and draw strength from them.
October 28, 1997

Stacy S.
18
Men can starve from a lack of
self-realization as much as they can
from lack of bread. - Richard Wright
Women place so much emphasis on their
physical appearance, that they don't spend
enough time finding their own personal
truths; what makes you happy, sad, smile
and cry. I was stuck in the everlasting end
of thin people surrounding me that I forgot
my essential truths and lost myself. There
is much to be said about what you can
do for yourself.
October 28, 1997

Dana-Christene Umanetz
22
There are few things I know for
certain in this world. One of these
things is that we cannot fix everything
on our own. We need to reach out. The
second is that there is nothing in this
world so strengthening as finding that
you are not alone in your struggle. We
are all around you. We are your
friends, your lovers, your sisters and
your brothers. Together, we will
overcome this darkness.
October 29, 1997

Kim Shanley
21
Recovery begins when
you stop dieting and
restricting calories
November 3, 1997

Lesily Thompson
18
The permanent temptation of
life is to confuse dreams with
reality...the permanent defeat
of life is when dreams are
surrendered to reality.
November 3, 1997

Heather Hallisey
14
I know it's hard but things can't
get any worse than what it is now.
I've had an eating disorder since
7th grade, I hate it. I try each and
everyday to pull myself out, but I
keep getting lost in fat grams and
calories. I've been hospitalized
once, it's not fun, hang in there.
November 4, 1997

Libby T.
34
Perhaps all the dragons
of our lives are princesses
who are waiting to see us
once, beautiful and brave.
-Rainer Maria Rilke
November 4, 1997

Alli Bienkowski
17
Every morning I wake up and
don't know whether I should cry
for having to face another day
of this, or thank God for letting
me live one more night. "For
the Lord bless thee, and keep
thee safe."
November 5, 1997

DeAnn McCombs
27
The weak give up and
stay, the strong give
up and leave.
November 7, 1997

Megan Geissler
21
Only when you are able to
reach the other side can you
possibly understand the beauty
of life. It's a terrifying road and
there are never ending setbacks.
Suffering makes you stronger, but
life is a more amazing experience
when it is lived fully and without
self-denigration. Love yourself
and don't give up.
November 7, 1997

Jennifer Clark
18
I've been going through
this for six years and
I'm still fighting. Don't
give up, there is
always help.
November 7, 1997

Sarah Gebelein
17
Reach high, for stars lie
hidden in your soul.
Dream deep, for every
dream preceeds the goal.
November 8, 1997

Jessica H.
11
I'm taking the first step by admitting that
I have anorexia. The first step is the most
important. An excert from Footprints in the
Sand. The Lord replied, "My precious
child, I love you and would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints, it
was then that I carried you." We are always
with God and He will carry us through these
times to recovery, so never say "I'm alone,
no one cares." It's not true, you are not
alone, and someone does care.
November 8, 1997

Carolina Osorio
20
I started taking diet pills during my
last year in high school. I was addicted
to them for 2 years. I stopped taking
them in January of this year and
ever since then, my life has taken a
turn. Despite the fact that my health
was affected a lot I'm thankful now to
the Lord and my guardian angel that
they protected me from dying of a bad
disease. I survived and I'm proud to
say it...now I'm into natural stuff.
I'm starting to regain my life back.
November 8, 1997

Deli W.
22
God, help me to help myself, give
me the will and courage to not only
survive, but to have a reason to live.
Living with this disease is so very
tiring, boring and time consuming. I
know my life is short and I have
wasted so much time already on such
a loss cause. Help me to find a way out
of this tunnel for within I am dying.
Accept my when I ask why me? why me?
November 9, 1997

Elizabeth Randall
18
An eating disorder is one of the hardest
things to overcome in one's life. To those
who have not been in the shoes of a
sufferer, it is easy to simply say "just
stop being stupid and eat something."
To a sufferer it is not nearly that easy. I
pray everyday that I don't relapse back
and so far I haven't. I want everyone to
know that I will pray for everyone. Just
remember that God is always there for
us and he always understands.
November 9, 1997

Kathryn P.
15
Remember, you are not alone
and you must conquer those
intangible enemies that lurk
inside of you. Fight and be
strong I'd like to thank my
family for helping me throughout
my recovery and my boyfriend,
Brian, who never lost hope.
November 9, 1997

Krista L.
27
Today is my 27th birthday.
I vow to beat this eating
disorder. The awareness is
the most difficult part of the
battle. From here it is self-
love!-->Kiss! Hug! Nourish!
I love myself from now on!
November 10, 1997

Vanessa Wilson
22
I am learning that I
deserve to be loved;
most importantly,
loved by me.
November 10, 1997

Becca C.
18
Terminal anorexia is very unfair. However,
I have fought for 7 years and intend to
live. I will not let it kill me now or ever.
"I love the moon and the moon loves me
God bless the moon and God bless me
When I lay me down to sleep
From the corner he does peep
When I close my eyes I see
That the moon is watching over me
I love the moon and the moon loves me
God bless the moon and God bless me."
Now and forever choose life!!!
November 10, 1997

Nicole Harris
19
Always remember there are
people out there who love you
and will do anything to help
you get through it. It doesn't
matter how hard we push them
away! Thanks to everyone
that was there for me!
November 10, 1997

Abigail Petrick
18
In the four years that I have
had this disease, I have
grown stronger and braver.
Now, as I am entering my
first relapse, I am incredibly
scared, but I know that I can
do it. Because if I can't, no
one will do it for me. I want
to live, and I will. I will beat
this monster inside of me!
November 10, 1997

Allison Berry
17
I sit here with tears in
my eyes as I read about
these struggles to live.
I lost two years of my
life to anorexia that I
will never have the
chance to live again.
Life is too precious to
waste on an ED.
November 11, 1997

Kimberly Cromwell
22
There is far too little public
under-standing of eating
disorders. Often, people
believe our struggle is a
choice. Rather, it is an
addiction, a disease, our only
sense of control. Find someone
who is supportive and well
educated on eating disorders
and the struggle involved.
November 11, 1997

Lisa Arndt
25
"Gotta learn how to starve the emptiness
and feed the hunger." -Indigo Girls.
To Colleen and Amy, I thank you
for your powerful contribution to my
recovery, as you both know me as the
friend of Caron, but I am also a survivor
myself. Seven years of disordered eating,
I say goodbye to anorexia and bulimia.
No more! I live now, I really am alive!
It is beautiful. And so I dedicate my life to
helping others live (like Caron) and find
recovery. I believe in recovery so much,
and I am one of many who are working in
the field of eating disorders to help others.
I am proud to be here. Blessed Be to all.
November 15, 1997

Los Angeles ANAD Group
(Heidi, Jeff, Jackie, Debbie,
Cynthia, Stacia, Mark, Sunny,
Linda, Bob, Ursula, Mia & Lisa)
We are members of a support group for
eating disorders. We are men & women,
we are young & old. We are recovering
from simple & complicated battles. We
meet once a week to share our recovery.
This is a process, one that is actually
worth it. Thank you ANAD, our sponsor
organization. Thank you Colleen for this
beautiful recognition of health.
November 15, 1997

Kate Cushman
26
I have recovered from bulimia.
I now help others recover. I
encourage EVERYONE who still
suffers to reach out, because
survivors are out there and we
want to help you. Let's keep
spreading this recovery...until
there are no more eating disorders.
November 15, 1997

Morley B.
42
It works, if you
work it. So work it.
You're worth it.
November 15, 1997

Rebecca F.
22
Every child is born beautiful.
I dream of a day when every
child will KNOW they are
born beautiful. Anorexia &
Bulimia lied to me for a long
time about beauty. Self-hate
is not beautiful, nor thin.
Stop the madness
November 15, 1997

Edith M.
29
Thank you to the few people
who did not give up on me,
though I gave up on myself,
after so many years of pain.
I am so grateful to the Radar
Institute who saved me years
ago and now employs me so
I may return the favor. It's not
your fault. You're not alone.
November 15, 1997

Kathy D.
31
I nearly died. Now you
wouldn't recognize me.
I am so alive! I work
to help others now and
this website reminds
me I'm not alone.
November 15, 1997

Gretchen Shaffer
27
Love yourself. You are all
Goddessess. Isn't it sad
that no man, woman, or
child EVER realizes his/her
own true worth??
November 15, 1997

Stephanie Fine
18
There is no path so dark, nor
road so steep, nor hill so
slippery that other people
have not been there before
me and survived. May my
dark times teach me to help
the people I love on similar
journeys. - Maggie Bedrosian
November 16, 1997

Colleen Gibbs
24
If you keep your face
to the sunshine, you
cannot see the shadows.
November 17, 1997

Brittany Pangborn
20
Tell them I'm alright, I'm
coming home. Tell them
I'm alright, I am alone. This
war is over... I'm coming
home. - Melissa Ethridge
Never give up in the fight! It
is worth fighting to live, no
matter how difficult it may be.
"The hunger artist is no more"
November 17, 1997

Andrea G.
16
We are soldiers in a
war where we are
dying to be thin.
November 18, 1997

Becky Manning
35
I just got out of a treatment center
a few days ago and I'm continuing
to press on at this point. There are
four beautiful children that call me
"Mommy" and they are counting
on me. For now my recovery is
for them. Hopefully someday my
recovery will be for me!
November 19, 1997

Jennifer White
19
Take that first step,
it's worth it!
November 21, 1997

Rebecca JoAnn Fontaine
23
I have been bulimic for ten
years and now I am in
recovery! It is a hard and
long road and I have only
just begun the journey, but if
I can do it, anyone can! Today
there is nothing that God and
I can't handle!!
November 21, 1997

Cathy Ticen
31
Please pray for me in
this fight...and any
encouragement you
could send my way
would be helpful.
November 22, 1997

Christine F.
18
I am so happy just to be at this
point - a time when I can love
myself and all my imperfections.
Some days are still hard, but I
will no longer allow myself to be
ruled by food. Life is too short
for that!
November 23, 1997

Joy Anne Bauer
21
Nothing is easy, but nothing
is impossible! You need to
feel. If emotion is gone then
there's nowhere else to go.
I've been there...I've regained
my feelings...and that's why
I'm here today.
November 23, 1997

Grace Stearns
17
You must do the thing you
think you cannot do.
Breaking yourself out of
this terrifying cage is
possible, although at times
it may seem impossible!
Take care of yourself - you
deserve all the gifts life offers.
November 23, 1997

Teresa L.
23
Fight your monster
from morning 'til
night. For everyday
is a new day:-)
November 23, 1997

Kathi Polansky
29
I have suffered from eating disorders
for over 16 years... I understand the love
affair, the misery, the perverse pleasure,
the self-destruction. Recovering is
learning how to live again. Tell yourself
you are worthy, and you are more than
a two-dimensional, silhouetted image on
a wall. You have dimension, you have
feelings, and you are entitled to joy,
respect, and satisfaction. Be gentle with
yourself and God Bless.
November 25, 1997

Jennifer Bruner
27
I lost eight years of my life,
youth and strength to anorexia
and bulimia. Even now, years
later, I feel that bad angel
hovering behind me, but I
understand him and his false
pretenses. I learned the hard
way to love life. Please, all
of you - wear precious mark
of the survivor with pride.
November 30, 1997

Tina Denis
18
Fighting an eating disorder
has got to be the hardest
thing to do. You have to have
faith in yourself and know you
really do have worth and you're
beautiful not only on the outside,
but also on the inside. I'm a
survivor and I'm truly proud of
it! Never give up! Recovery is
worth fighting for! There is hope!
November 30, 1997

Melissa Gagnon
21
I have been battling eating
disorders for almost 4 years.
While the road to recovery
may never end, at least I
can say I have chosen the
path to better my life.
November 30, 1997

Heather J. Campbell
22
"I might be a mess but
I sure can survive."
-Four Non-Blondes
We can all recover once
we have convinced
ourselves that we really
want to. Good luck!
December 1, 1997

Beth Gerrish
19
"Amnesia fosters arrogance.
We can't afford to forget. We
need to remember and we need
to share our story. There is
someone who is like you were
and he or she needs to know
what God can do. Your honest
portrayal of your past may be
the courage for another's
future." - Max Lucado
December 1, 1997

Elizabeth Haserick
18
Only you can make
yourself healthy again,
so that you can help
others in the world who
are truly in need.
December 2, 1997

Jennie Hill
17
I am a surviving victim. A victim
of rape. The monster raped me
of my security, joy, & being. All
the torture. All the pain. Just to
end up where I started. Years of
my life wasted away. Slowly, I'm
finding my way, becoming anew.
As for now, it's pay-back time...
look out you Thing, you're going
down!!! Isaiah 46:4
December 5, 1997

Kiki Abbott
47
Nothing is unknown to
God. You can trust
God with the unknown.
December 5, 1997

Tanya Betts
16
I am 16 and I have signs of
anorexia. I take 2 different
kinds of diet pills everyday.
Please pray for me for I am
trying to conquer my fears.
December 7, 1997

Kathy Waggoner
30
Never give up!
Recovery is worth
fighting for.
You can do it!
December 7, 1997

Kathryn B.
20
I would never starve an
animal or a child. Now I
will try to think the same
way for myself.
December 9, 1997

Tracy Forster
18
It is a battle I fight everyday
but I will continue to fight!!!
I admire all the strength shown
on this page!! I'm proud of
everyone!! God Bless You!!
December 9, 1997

Lauren R.
16
We are all angels with but one
wing, and only by embracing
each other may we fly. Keep
up the hard work! It's worth it
in the long run. Some days I
wonder, "Will I ever really get
over this?" But, I will, and so
will you. You are not alone!
December 10, 1997

Corina Z.
23
By adding my name to this
wall, I promise myself to
survive...I will see my 30th
birthday and will have
children and see the
sunshine many years from
now. You can't give up.
This is your only life.
December 10, 1997

Tracy Duguay
24
We are all God's creations
and I must believe for all of
us that there is hope. I know
that we have a Daddy in
heaven above who longs to
love us the way we want to be
loved. Hold fast to that hope
as you walk through each day.
December 11, 1997

Jennifer B.
19
Don't give up. Take one
day at a time. And remember
God doesn't give us more
than we can handle.
Good luck and God Bless.
December 11, 1997

Cortney Judge
20
It has been a long time since
I have felt happy and healthy.
Now that I know what that
feels like, I would not give it
up for the world. My wish is
that you all find this happiness
and remember not to get
discouraged, it takes time.
December 14, 1997

Kyle Beth Gibson
14
Fighting is only half the
battle in a world where
only the strong survive.
December 15, 1997

Andrea Vinke
22
Keep fighting! Freedom
is worth fighting for.
December 15, 1997

Susanne J.
26
Each day remember you
are unconditionally loved
and accepted by God.
"Hold infinity in the palm of
your hand." -William Blake
December 16, 1997

Kelly Bocuzzo
20
An eating disorder is not something
that you can go on with and expect to
ever have a normal happy life. The
only way to fully recover is to admit to
yourself that you need help and be
willing to give others the right to help
you fight for your life. No one who hasn't
suffered will ever know the pain we go
through each day. We have to be strong
and tell ourselves that we are worth it!
November 19, 1997

Jocelyn Fillian
17
We acquire the
strength we
overcome.
December 21, 1997

Judith Kay Eastes
21
"Come to me you who are
weary and burdened and I
will give you rest." That is
what the Lord spoke to me
when I surrendered my ED
to him. God is good, He wants
to help his children. I am a
living example. Glory to God!!!
December 21, 1997

Sabrina Swindle
19
There are rewards out
there waiting for you
and bright skies, loving
friends and a life so full
you can't even begin
to imagine. Oh, God
loves you so much.
December 21, 1997

Kathleen Pierdon
29
The hardest thing I have had
to do is admit that what started
out as a simple diet has spun
out of my hands and I need help
to gain control where I really
never had any. Jesus loves you
and you can fight too with His
help and proper therapy.
God Bless You
December 23, 1997

Stephanie Walters
18
While we concentrate on what lies on
the outside, this disease destroys
what's inside us; it feasts on our
heart and soul, while we starve. But
regardless of how sly this beast is,
we can beat it. Look inside yourself
and regain what's yours. Have faith
in yourself and God and never give
up. I promise recovery is worth all
that it takes; life truly is wonderful
when you are free.
December 24, 1997

Jessica Burrows
20
Spread your wings
and fly away!
December 24, 1997

Kathy Jones
42
"voices in her head tell her
she ain't no good; and she's
tryin' to get better, if she
only could - but it's those
voices; she's hearing those
voices." I wrote the song
"Voices" about all of us who
are trying to recover - but
somehow still suffer.
December 24, 1997

Kotina Grier
25
I would like to thank
Maya Angelou for
making me realize
that even though I am
"not cute or built to suit
a fashion model size",
that I am still a
Phenomenal Woman!
December 25, 1997

Jessica Smith
15
Everyday is a continuous battle,
almost as if bulimia and food is
fighting you, as silly as that
sounds. Shield yourself with the
armor of God, for He has made us
all more than conquerors! Life is
hard, and the hardest is always
still in store for us. Trust in God,
and know that He has promised to
help us, He loves us, and so should
you love yourself. Good luck!
December 27, 1997

Jordayn L.
10
I just spent Christmas in
a hospital. I have had an
eating disorder since I was
eight. Just before I turned
ten I was put in a hospital
because I weighed very
little. I have now gained
some weight and I get to go
home for New Years Eve.
December 27, 1997

Jeri Paull
39
I have visited hell, and I
will not return! Each one of
you out there is beautiful
in your own, unique way...
celebrate your beauty and
uniqueness every single
day of your life.
December 28, 1997

Kath Thackham
32
I'll forever be grateful to Chinah
and I'll never stop loving my
baby "Faith", I miss you both
desperately! Don't quit 5
minutes before your miracle
happens. I'll always remember
my baby angel...
December 29, 1997

Sabrina Bipes
19
"I can do all things through
Christ who strengthens me!"
-Phil 4:13
When you're beautiful on
the inside, it shows through
to the outside!
December 29, 1997

Ila Nogues
21
Eating disorders are
like all other
addictions; recovery
comes by fighting
one day at a time.
December 29, 1997

Robyn Davis
21
"Heal me, O Lord, and I will be healed;
save me and I will be saved, for you
are the one I praise" - Jeremiah 17:14
My fight is far from over but I can say
that I am here today only because of
God's grace! As hard as it is, you just
have to daily surrender to God and
give Him the control. I love everyone
of you and I feel your pain. You are in
my thoughts and prayers.
December 29, 1997

AJane Schoenfeld
31
"Everything has to
do with food of one
kind or another."
--Merrit Malloy
December 31, 1997

Nicole D.
22
Get real, Cosmo!!! I'm
hungry and I don't need
to throw up anymore to
look like you! Fight the
demon inside. He is not
the friend you think he is.
December 31, 1997

Kathy Jameson
29
I hope to one day say that I am
in recovery, but for now I keep
fighting the battle. "Grant me
the serenity to accept the things
I cannot change, Courage to
change the things I can, and the
Wisdom to know the difference."
January 2, 1998

Katey Ratz
19
I am still struggling but
I am not going to let the
anorexia beat me. We
all deserve to get better.
We all deserve life.
January 3, 1998

Christina K.
14
Tomorrow is a fresh start,
with no mistakes! Recovery
is worth fighting for!
Never give up!
January 5, 1998

Jen Lynds
20
I believe now that anorexia
has helped me discover who
I am, and I think I am a
better person. I just wish it
didn't have to hurt so bad.
January 6, 1998

Isavella Ahilleos
19
They love us just the way
we are, so why change?
Free the butterflies from
your heart...Only that day
you shall be happy.
January 6, 1998

Sheryl Kersmarki
38
I will survive, thanks
to all of my angels and
they know who they are.
Peace.
January 8, 1998

Melinda-Michelle McMillan
29
The successes and the
failures are all part of the
journey - don't forget that.
January 8, 1998 

Lydia Smith
16
Recovery is the scariest thing I
have ever had to go through. I
won't give up. I want my name
to stay on this wall and to be
able to live long enough to come
back and look at it in the future.
January 10, 1998

Kellyn Zimmerlin
38
We are all worthy people who
deserve to enjoy our lives
free from selfjudgement and
criticism we have inflicted
upon ourselves through our
eating disorders. Together
we can find peace.
January 11, 1998

Heidi Steiner
24
Somebody stole my life,
but I'm taking it back.
I can see colors now.
Tracing the truth through
the tangle of lies, forgiving
myself what I did to
survive...I am living now.
January 11, 1998

Erin McCallion
19
"Though my soul may set in
darkness, it will rise in perfect
light, I have loved the stars
too fondly to be fearful of the
night." - Sarah Williams
I have lived for too long in the
darkness of anorexia. I must
believe that I will triumph in
the end, and live in the light.
January 11, 1998

Jennifer Young
23
Life is too short! Make
every day count...and
always remember
tomorrow is worth
fighting for.
January 11, 1998

Sarah Tredeau
14
I guess I am a little of everything.
I am a compulsive eater, bulimic
and anorexic. I know what people
go through, and I want to let them
know the one thing I know now...
You are not alone. People are all
around you who what to help.
January 13, 1998

Diane D.
37
Persevere! Sometimes,
success is just a matter
of hanging on.
January 14, 1998

Christine Moyer
28
Freedom is possible. "to
bestow on them a crown of
beauty instead of ashes,
the oil of gladness instead
of mourning, and a garment
of praise instead of a spirit
of despair."-Isaiah 61:3
January 15, 1998

Kristi Kervin
15
I walk through this; the "Garden
of Pain" hurting. I too suffer from
anorexia and bulimia. I have
struggled with this nightmare for
close to 7 years. I never had the
chance to grow up or the chance to
be a kid. Thanks to my good friend
Nicole, I'm in sight of the road to
recovery. I wish her much love and
success also. Thanks a bunch.
January 16, 1998

Steffanie Welch Burton
31
You cannot imagine the
freedom of being puke-
free. To your health!!!
January 16, 1998

Marie Claude Morin
39
Get help. Talk about it. If at
first they don't listen, don't
give up. Refuse to believe that
life is meant to be lived in chains!
Look at that ED right in the eyes,
with the support of professionals
and loving people around you.
Don't isolate yourself with ED;
get out and take a deep breath!
Life is beautiful!
January 18, 1998

Beth Brown
14
Never stop trying.
Recovery will happen
if you want it to happen.
You get out how much
effort you put in, so put
in a lot, the way I did.
January 19, 1997

Jennifer Taratuta
24
"I will never fail you nor
forsake you." Hence we can
confidentially say, "The Lord
is my helper, I will not be
afraid; what can man do to
me?" - Hebrews 13:5-6
Thank you God for never
leaving my side as I fight
against this bulimia.
January 19, 1998

Steph K.
14
By putting my name
on this wall, I promise
to survive.
January 19, 1998

Nicole Norman
15
I'm fifteen and a victim
of bulimia and anorexia.
It's hard, but I hope to
get better someday.
January 20, 1998

Renee Jurgensen
46
Giving up would be so easy at times,
but I have two beautiful daughters
to think about. I have always told
them that I will live to be 110 years
old, and I can't let them down.
I must survive!
January 21, 1998

Katie Gleason
19
Every single one of us has an
incredibly gorgeous butterfly
waiting inside of us to be set
free. Let that beautiful light
shine. Find the courage to
journey into the depths of your
soul and discover the love.
There you will find freedom.
You will find peace.
January 21, 1998

Robert Straight
26
There is nothing to
fear but fear itself.
January 21, 1998

Erika Heilig
27
Food has been my toxic passion
for 15 years. I have had
reprieves that tell me there
is sanity beyond it all. And
everytime I break the silence
of it, I hear the sanity.
January 21, 1998

Alexandra Ajami
18
Life is not a race...
don't miss your life
and everyone else's
in the process.
Life is too short.
January 21, 1998

Jennifer Blad
19
Life is so much more meaningful
without my eating disorder. Life
is much better, more exciting, and
easier to live. "Fear thou not; for
I am with thee: be not dismayed;
for I am thy God; I will strengthen
thee; yes, I will help thee; yea I will
uphold thee with the right hand of
my righteousness."- Isaiah 41:10
January 21, 1998

Bryn Appleton
16
"Faith is being sure of what
you hope for and certain
of what you do not see."
- Hebrews 11:1
Have faith, my friends.
You can do this. We all can.
January 21, 1998

Rachael Murphy
19
It's not worth
losing everything
to become nothing.
January 25, 1998

Ida E.
29
It took me so long to finally figure
out that the armor I am using to
protect myself...is in fact a weapon
that is slowly killing me. Today I am
choosing to cast away the "armor"
of bulimia and reside within the
fortresses of life. I pray that God will
see me through this. I know He will.
January 25, 1998

Lori Jean S.
21
Don't stay in this place
too long. They will crawl
inside your shoes. They
will eat your from inside.
They will make you play
to lose.
January 25, 1998

Rosalie S.
36
One day at a time!
January 26, 1998

Angela Gorzelsky
31
I have struggled with this disease
for 13 long years. I know someday
I will get better but for me someday
can't come soon enough. I pray for
the strength of God each day and
I pray for all of you.
January 27, 1998

Shelly Eagle
33
I am 33 yrs old, I remember
saying at 27 I don't want to
be 30 with bulimia, and here
I am still fighting the battle
that I so desperately want to
win...God, I pray to you for
the strength to overcome...
January 27, 1998

Jamie Eiler
19
You never can tell how close
you are, it may be near when
it seems so far, so stick to the
fight when you are hardest hit.
It's when things seem worse that
you must not quit! I believe in
you, I believe in myself.
Love will sustain you.
January 28, 1998

Jennifer Timmons
16
Hi everyone! If anyone has
a problem they can always
get help. You know you can
do it, I did it so that means
you can. Just keep trying,
it will work out for you.
January 30, 1998

Carolyn Menz
19
Learn to make the best
of the worst, not the
worst of the best.
February 1, 1998

Erinn Brickley
19
This disease stole my childhood
from me, stripped me of all self-
worth, and gave me heartache,
but I am stronger because of it.
God, along with those angels he
placed in my life, have helped
me to see it through! I may have
lost the battle, but I have won
the war and I know I will go far.
February 1, 1998

Rachel Suddarth
16
A survivor and proud
of it! When it comes
to eating disorders
and body image,
never be your own
judge.
February 1, 1998

Amanda Woodward
16
I thank God everyday for giving
me this eating disorder. It is the
hardest thing in the world to fight
this demon, but I am strong and
so are all of you. Someday I will
be able to help others realize
how beautiful they are.
February 1, 1998

Jenae Strader
21
For me success is learning to love
myself inside and out. It is learning
to take care of myself to become
healthy. It is realizing that ED can
kill. I don't want to be his victim. I
want to be successful. I can't start
trying tomorrow or next week
because it might be too late. I have
to start today. Believe in yourself!
February 3, 1998

Julie Brand
20
We all have a personal strength deep
inside. If we look within ourselves and
use this strength, together we can
overcome this disease. The energy that
I spent on anorexia has now been
redirected to living, and I have found
so much happiness in simply living!
To all my friends who have helped me
and continue to stand by me,
Thank-you, I owe you my life!
February 3, 1998

Rachel Huff
20
Prayer is the most lasting
and effective medicine.
If you can't tell anyone,
start with God.
February 4, 1998

Julie McConnell
26
I have always felt like I was missing
some pieces of the puzzle that
everyone else possessed, something
that made everyone else at ease in
their surroundings and able to fit in.
I have always felt like an outsider.
But, I no longer quell my loneliness
and quiet the constant noise inside
my brain with thoughts of food.
I have defeated my bulimia!!!
February 5, 1998

Cheryl Pratt
17
If you fail to succeed
rise up and try again
and one day you will
obtain your dream.
February 5, 1998

Kelly Heier
23
Everyday is a struggle, but I
must never give up. I have so
much to give to others, and I
refuse to give up on this life no
matter how difficult or trying
it is. I WILL survive. Thanks
to everyone who never gave
up on me - I continue to
fight because of you.
February 5, 1998

Michelle Wargnier
18
This demon that I hate to love
will not win because I am the
source of my strength. Never
give in to it. Looking from the
inside out is the most beautiful
reflection I have ever seen.
Believe you can!
February 6, 1998

Kelli Hopkins
27
I thank my Lord Jesus
Christ for preserving
my life thus far as
He and I battle the
voices within.
February 6, 1998

Molly Mossey
16
Shoot for the moon
and even if you don't
reach it, you will land
amongst the stars!
February 8, 1998

Lara D.
18
I think the most valuable thing
that I continue to learn about
my struggle with anorexia and
bulimia is that my life is, in fact,
very precious. Let yourself be
loved, and let yourself live. Your
life is a gift. Feel love, find your
wings, and set yourself free.
February 8, 1998

Betsy German
47
I was hopeless for so long,
but now I've had almost
eleven years of true recovery.
Keep trying. Recovery is
there for you!
February 9, 1998

Cody S.
16
If you ask me what I
came to do, I will tell
you...I came to live out
loud. Don't let anorexia
silence you any longer.
I hope you can find the
courage to live out loud!
February 10, 1998

Jette Vindum
34
Like you, my sisters, I have been
wasting most of my life, energy
and thoughts fighting against the
same enemy. I get scared when
hopelessness tells me it would be
better to die than struggle like
this. But you all comfort me - we
are not alone. Let's fight together
and send each other warm feelings,
support, hope and love. Life has
more to offer, also to us.
February 10, 1998

Tiffany Roberts
21
I have been given hope
and courage. God has
been faithful to me. It is
a daily struggle but I
have come too far to give
up fighting this battle. I
will win this battle for
Christ is on my side.
FIGHT!
February 10, 1998

Laurel T.
21
"One does not discover
new lands without
consenting to loose
sight of the shore for
a very long time."
- Andre Gide
February 10, 1998

Linda S.
39
Celebrate your differences! You are
not like anyone else. You are fine
just as you are. After 25 years of
anorexia, I've stopped placing myself
above all else, and understand I'm
part of the whole. It's allowed me to
stop worrying about everything I do,
say, and eat. Life is too short. Find
the strength in yourself, and discover
who you really are! Live can be fun
February 12, 1998

Shirin Zanganeh
19
You are the master of your
body! I am in the process
of recovery. I just took my
first step today. I know I
have a problem, and I am
going to attend a group
meeting tomorrow on
campus. If I can do it,
anyone can!
February 12, 1998

Leslie Y.
20
"The Lord leads us and provides
us that all things that happen,
whether sad or joyful befall us
for good." You, as I have, may
ask "why?" All I believe in is
hope...Hope for change, hope
for the best! Moderation
brings freedom. Restriction
brings enslavement.
February 14, 1998

Jennifer N. Clark
23
The hardest thing about recovering
from an eating disorder is the fact
that food is a part of our daily lives.
One must learn how to take "our"
tigers out for a walk and put them
back in their cages without having
"our" tigers escape. But remember
to "Never bend your head, always
hold it high. Look the world straight
in the face." -Helen Keller
February 15, 1998

Elaine H.
21
If you travel far enough,
one day you will recognize
yourself coming down the
road to meet yourself, and
you will say "YES"
February 15, 1998

Sarah Krech
19
Father God, we come to you today
asking to be healed of our eating
disorders. Help us to know that
we are forgiven but that it hurts
you to see us do this to ourselves.
We love you and want to change.
In Christ's name, Amen.
February 18, 1998

Patricia Ellis
27
I've never had a life.
I'd sure like to give
myself one.
February 18, 1998

Jena Morrow
21
"But this happened that we might not
rely on ourselves but on God, who
raises the dead. He has delivered
us from such a deadly peril, and
He will deliver us." 2 Cor.1:9-10
"Therefore we do not lose heart.
Though outwardly we are wasting
away, yet inwardly we are being
renewed day by day." 2 Cor 4:16
February 18. 1998

Mary Ahn
17
Recovery is hard, a
long uphill battle, but
the view from the top
of the mountain is
worth the journey.
Believe in yourself
and in the Lord!
February 18, 1998

Naomi Russian
24
Together we can beat
this demon. Anorexic
or bulimic, we are never
alone in the spirit of us
all. One day we will all
fly free!
February 19, 1998

Gene Heon
35
Nothing is impossible
if you put your
mind to it!!
February 19, 1998

Jennifer Bryant
31
You can't beat the monster until you
know why the monster was able to
invade your life, and that can be the
hardest part of all. But defeating
the monster, and proving yourself
able to survive, means you have
unimaginable strength, the power to
do anything. Most of all, love
yourself, because you deserve love.
February 19, 1998

Becca F.
37
I've had bulimia for 6 years.
By placing my name on this
wall I hope to have the
courage to continue my fight.
Reading everyone's words
were a great comfort and
gave me positive hope.
God Bless.
February 19, 1998

Gina Spataro
19
Life is worth living.
If you learn to love
yourself, you will
love life.
February 19, 1998

Andrea Uxa
19
There comes a day when
you have to make the
choice between an eating
disorder and life.
February 20, 1998

Rebecca Woods
40
There is such a thing as recovery.
I have found that working through
my issues which are affecting me
helps me to focus on treating
myself better. I am worth it!!!
You are too!!!
February 21, 1998

Danielle K.
24
"Our problems become the
very place to discover
wisdom and love." - Budda
This wall is courage. May
you find what you need
here...I did.
February 22, 1998

Caroline Clements
32
God, I offer myself to thee - to
build with me and do with me
as though wilt. Relieve me of
the bondage of self, that I may
better do thy will. Take away my
difficulities, that victory over
them may bear witness to those
I would help of they power, thy
love, and thy way of life. May I
do thy will always. Amen.
February 23, 1998

Kelly Queen-Willison
32
Remember, you are
only as sick as your
secrets. A sure way
to be healthy is to
let your secrets go.
Then and only then
can you be free.
February 23, 1998

Katie S.
25
The day I began to beat my disorder,
was the day I finally asked for help.
No one can beat an eating disorder
alone. Only with the support of a
wonderful therapist, friends, family
and God, did I get to where I am
today - three years without a relapse.
You can do it too!
February 23, 1998

Karen Bates
29
My cure: Participate in fun activities
w/friends or companions. You'll be amazed
at the "natural" transformations that occur
in your brain which can be a "natural cure"
to anorexia nervosa. Our minds house only
one thought at a time. Feed your mind
w/happy thoughts. They produce an energy
that will "naturally" work to replace the
sad! Good things will follow! I'm proof!
February 23, 1998

Sue Kappler
15
"It's hard to be brave when you're
only a very small animal." - Piglet
My 16th birthday is in 11 days. I
have been fighting for my whole
life and there have been many
times when I didn't believe I would
make it to my next birthday, nor
did I want to. I made a promise to
fight, not to die, and I intend on
keeping it.
February 24, 1998

Liza R.
22
I am tired of being a
distorted reflection;
I am tired of being
just the number on a
scale. I just want to
be me.
February 24, 1998

Lea Henderson
14
I have yet to recover but I
can say just how hard it is.
As long as I remember to
think of the future, rather
then the present, then
everything is easier to deal
with. Try hard to stay here,
there are many people who
care for you! God Bless.
February 24, 1998

Michelle Marie Towle
18
Everyday is a new day. I am
writing this on the wall because
I need to promise myself and
God that I will accomplish my
lifelong goal of being happy with
me. I wasted years of my life,
but there are more to come, keep
your head up and remember we
were put here for a reason, not
to destroy ourselves.
February 24, 1998

Sheree Ferguson
40
Try to let go and let
God do His work. He
understands your pain.
February 25, 1998

Rosemarie L.
42
I need help. I am blinded and
I want to see. I am lost and I
want to find myself. Reading
each person's experiences
and words of encouragement
gives me hope. Thank you.
February 25, 1998

Kimberly Hyland
17
Never give up for the fight of
your body! Put your faith in
God and He will lead you
through this fight. "For I can
do everything with the help of
Christ who gives me the
strength I need." Phil. 4:13
February 25, 1998

Chrissy Crockett
19
Without the support of
my family and friends, I
wouldn't have recovered.
Remember, family and
friends will help you fight
the eating disorder.
February 26, 1998

Ione Cornelius
25
Children are tomorrow only
as they are taught today. I
think the inhabitants of this
world should lose the word
diet, it causes fatalities and
I'm so glad I wasn't too late
too realize.
February 26, 1998

Katie Morrisson
16
You will not realize how
great life is until you
have gotten rid of your
eating disorder. You can
do it!!! My love and
support to everyone.
Recovery is possible.
February 26, 1998

Heather Seliger
17
"...but those who hope in
the Lord will renew their
strength. They will soar
on wings of eagles, they
will run and not grow
weary, they will walk
and not be faint."
-Isaiah 40:31
February 27, 1998

Aileen Pickard
48
Please reach out for help! I'm glad
I did. It is such a wonderful feeling
of freedom to have this monster off
my back! I'm not saying food will
never be an issue in my life again,
but I am more educated and wiser
now and able to make better choices.
The long painful road to recovery is
well worth it. Hang in there!
February 27, 1998

Sarah Kozushin
16
I'm putting this up as a pledge
that I will not succumb to
bulimarexia. I'm fighting it, and
will continue to until I've won.
"To be different is not necessarily
to be ugly; to have a different idea
is not necessarily to be wrong. The
worst possible thing is for all of us
to begin to look and act and think
alike." - Gene Roddenberry
February 27, 1998

Tracey V.
28
I find the courage I need in
my husband and baby girl.
I dedicate my continued
recovery to them and to
my fellow survivors. Our
love is the greatest gift we
can give one another.
March 1, 1998

Jenny R.
20
This site gives me hope of
total recovery some day.
I don't wanna live like this
anymore and I know I can
do it, I know we all can do
it, if we just try and try. It
won't be easy but it will be
worth it in the end. Keep
the faith and believe ...I
believe in us all!
March 1, 1998

Gina Castagnozzi
14
To overcome an eating disorder
is just about the hardest thing I
ever had to do.  I feel for every
one who ever had to go through
this horrible disease.  Know that
if you want to get better, you
really can do it, but if you want
to die, no one can stop you. 
Remember that God is watching
out  for you.
March 1, 1998

Rachel Quast
23
No matter what pain
you feel, know you
are worth all honor!
March 1, 1998

Laura W.
19
I am not free yet.  I have only
just begun my healing.  I
decided I can't fight this myself
anymore.  Getting help doesn't
mean you've given up.  It means
you have the strength to beat it.
I may fall, I may stumble, I may
get lost, but my passion for
getting better will always get me
back on the right track again.  I
will fight this, I will fight this.
March 1, 1998

Nicole Gorney
20
Beauty comes from
within. Love yourself!
Life is so beautiful!
March 3, 1998

Angela Dunleavy
19
"The future belongs to those who
believe in the power of their
dreams." - Eleanor Roosevelt
Never give up on your dreams
for  recovery.  It will come to
you within the Lord's loving
touch.  I love all of my
Remuda Ranch sisters.
March 5, 1998

Sister Mary Margaret
29
God is on our side.  He
loves each one of us and
I think perhaps the fact
that we need Him so
much even increases His
love for us.  With God all
  things are possible.
March 5, 1998

Shelly Barker
20
When travelling down that
same familiar road with no
end in sight, remember
there is always someone a
few steps ahead of you with
their hand reaching out,
waiting for you to catch up.
March 6, 1998

Tiffany Matthews
30
"You shall be a blessing.
Do not fear, let your
hands be strong."
-Zechariah 8:13
March 7, 1998

Jacki D.
14
Everyday for over a year
now.  You have to get help.
I did my whole body this
morning.  You can do it. 
Tell yourself that you will
  survive.  Suicide is not the
way, I know, suicide is not
the way.
March 9, 1998

Megan Vaselewski
13
I am a surviving bulimic, my whole
life I have thought myself fat in  some
way or another.  Even as I write, I'm
fighting, fighting to have self control. 
It's not easy. Talk to a best friend,
a parent, anyone. It feels really good
to let your secret out, and to express
yourself to something other than the
water in the toilet.
March 9, 1998

Allison A.
21
We all must walk a path in life. Remember
that your path of recovery may be windy,
and may go backwards at times, but you
will get there.  Learn to love yourself, and
to believe in yourself.  When you get to a
point where you can say, "This is it. This
is recovery." Then you will see how worth
it your struggles have been.  You will not
fail, you are a wonderful person.
Remember that always.
March 11, 1998

JoAnna Deeter
20
"If you can fuel it, you can run it."
  I started anorexia because I
wanted to run and I have ended
it because I  wanted to live then
run! It has all been worth the wait.
"I will go the distance, because this
is where I am meant to be."  Love
you all and you can be strong!!!"
March 11, 1998

Brenda Huckabee
23
I am a compulsive overeater but
what am I going to do about it.
I am going to fight...I will fight
for freedom from shame, guilt,
and from myself...I than Jesus
who is my Higher Power that He
is faithful, even when I am not
there will be victory!!!
March 11, 1998

Angie Rice
19
Live
Love
Laugh
March 12, 1998

Jenni Yeisley
26
Recovery is probably the
hardest thing you'll ever
do, but it is also the most
wonderful thing you'll ever
do.  You can do it!
March 12, 1998

Aimee Boyd
22
Be in love with life and
in life with love.  Never
take your eyes off Him!
I love all my sisters from
Remuda! Hang in there!
March 13, 1998

Rosemary Russo-Harren
28
I take my recovery one
day at a time.  Just for
today I am a miracle!
March 15, 1998

Ryann Collins
17
A good friend of mine
once told me, "God
only gives problems to
those who are strong
enough to handle them."
Keep fighting and never
give up.  We are all
worth it!
March 15, 1998

Allison Riley
22
Every action I have done, every tear
I have cried, every step I have taken
has made me who I am today.  To
regret any one of them would be to
regret who I am. I am a strong and
independent young woman.  I would
not change a mintue of what I have
gone through. To change even a
moment would change who I am
today.  I am proud of what I have
gone through. I am proud of me.
I am a survivor.
March 15, 1998

Laurie Trumbower
17
Always remember, "If
you're giving in, then
you are giving up."
---William P. Corgan Jr.
It's a hideous beast. It
bleats in all of us.  It's
our doing to undo it all...
March 16, 1998

Norma M.
37
This is to my beautiful children...
My miracles I promise to keep
getting better.  It's been too
many years of this, even before
you were born.  I thank God for
you guys everyday.  I've battled
this for over 20 years and it's
time I won!!!  Mommy's going to
kick Annie-Rexia's butt!!!
Bring on the chocolate Ensure!!!
March 16, 1998

Heather Purdin
15
Nothing worthwhile is ever
easy, so never give up!
Recovery is worth fighting
for.  We have to remind
ourselves of this!!!:)
March 16, 1998

Heidi C. Bean
21
Love yourself, be yourself,
fight for happiness, and
live life with passion.  Know
that God and friends are
beside you every day and
love you for who you are.
March 17, 1998

Theresa Walters
25
I have battled bulimia for ten
years now and have sadly seen
three friends pass away in the
process.  I intend to survive!
"I hate and I hate disintergration,
watching us wither, black winged
roses that safely changed their
color, I can't reach you, give me
life, give me pain, give me
myself again!" - Tori Amos
March 18, 1998

Jennifer Hubbard
27
Every day is my
second chance.
I won't waste it.
March 18, 1998

Robyn Biar
25
"I am entitled to be whole in mind,
body and spirit.  Today I will
practice holding these spheres in
balance.  Love is sunshine, hate
is shadow, life is checkered shade
and sunshine." - Longfellow
"There are two perfect men; one
dead, and the other unborn."
- Chinese Proverb
March 18, 1998

Dana Akam
17
The first step to recovery is admitting
a problem.  I knew I needed help, God's
help. "For I know the plans I have for
you declares the Lord, plans to prosper
you and not to harm you, plans to give
you hope and a future."- Jer. 29:11 God
has given me the strength to overcome.
  I know that there is hope for you.
Never lose hope, God is always there!
March 19, 1998

Amy Renee Humphrey
25
Exactly one year ago today, I left the
most magical place in the world...
Remunda Ranch.  My heart will never
forget the power of the friendships I
made there.  Especially the one with
God. Remuda Sisters, if your out there,
please know I love you, and I made it
to my one year anniversary.   You have
saved my life.  Peace and strength to
you all in '98. Love in Christ.
March 20, 1998

Lisa Ray
35
I live day by day doing the
things that need to be done
to survive.  Life is much more
worth living when you realize
the value of it.  I am not fully
recovered but I get closer to
it day by day.
March 20, 1998

Kathy Dicker
29
Courage is not lack of fear, it
is the ability to trust and walk
through the fear.  My recovery
is about following dreams,
enjoying freedom and gaining
the courage to become the
person I always was, but was
too scared to be.
March 20, 1998

Patrice Hackenburg
34
Cherish every moment
of every day.  Life is a
struggle, don't give up
the fight.
March 20, 1998

Christie B.
23
It is okay to be
as you are!
March 21, 1998

Renee Lecuyer
15
I'm at the beginning of recovery.  It is
I think the hardest thing I will ever go
through.  I hope I have the strength to
survive like all ofyou who inspire me to
continue even if I want to quit.  We all
deserve a normal life.  May God be with
us all.  Thanks to all the people who are
standing by me through these tough times.
March 21, 1998

Reba Sloan, MPH, LRD
43
Keep a prayer on your
lips and boxing gloves on
your hands.  Do battle
with the eating disorder
with Gods' strength!
March 21, 1998

Leigh Strode
39
I am traveling a long road.
Sometimes I walk, sometimes
  skip, sometimes stumble and
step back, but even the baby
steps are one step closer.
This was a long  journey, but
I do not walk alone.
March 23, 1998

Angie Frederick
24
To find true happiness
you have to beat
the disease!
March 23, 1998

Sandra Damotta
17
No one is ever really lost.
 There is always a road
 that leads back. There is
 always a road that goes
 ahead.  Only you can
 decide which one to take.
March 25, 1998

Alissa Kingsbury
27
"As I dance, whirling and joyous, happier than I've
 ever been in my life, another bright-faced dancer
  joins me...The other dancer has obviously come
through all right, as I have done. She is beautiful,
  whole and free, and she is also me." -Alice Walker. 
 May you too find the inner strength to become
 whole and  dance with joy.
March 26, 1998

Lori S.
22
Every human being
has the chance to
live life with dignity.
March 27, 1998

Jessica A.
13
You are someone.
You are never
alone.
March 27, 1998

Allison Bedford
13
Anorexia nervosa has taken over
my life for months now.  It turned
me into a person who my family and
I barely knew, but I am determined
to overcome it and not allow it to
rule my life anymore! I know there
is such a thing as recovery and I
hope that one day I will be able to
experience its carefree feeling.
March 27, 1998

Kristina Grace
14
"I sought the Lord, and He
heard me and  delivered me
from all my fears." Psa. 34:4
Thanks to my family for always
being there when I cried. Thanks
to my friends for never leaving
my side.  Thanks to my Lord
who felt my pain and became my
love carrier.  I couldn't have
done this without you.
March 27, 1998

Virginia Lee Benish
17
I have lost six years of precious life to bulimia.
Although I continue to fight every day (and
sometimes I don't win), I have realized my only
revenge is survival! I want to thank Rogers
Memorial Hospital for putting the sun back in
my sky and showing me abstinence is possible.
Mostly I want to tell my mommy,"Thank you
for saving my life."
March 28, 1998

Crystal Tears
18
"The mystery of pain.  Pain has an
element of blank; it cannot recollect
when it began, or if there was a day
when it was not.  It has no future but
itself, it's infinite realms contain it's
past, enlightened to perceive new
periods of pain."-Emily Dickinson
"Pretty is never beautiful"-Tori Amos
March 29, 1998

Anne S.
27
I'm living in a nightmare, where being
thin and beautiful are the only things
worth fighting for; I'm living in a
prison, where food and my scale are
my only comfort; I'm living in a lie,
where nobody knows how much pain
I feel inside; I feel so much pain and
there's no room to feel anything else;
Please, God, help me to feel again;
Please, God, help me live again.
March 29, 1998

Nina Bauer-Nilsen
18
To all my fighting sisters
and brothers.  We can and
we will make it! We will
make it, for we know what
life is about and the world
needs us.  You are always
in my heart.
March 31, 1998

Aasha S.
30
"Do the thing you
think you cannot do."
-Eleanor Roosevelt
March 31, 1998

Molly Hansen
22
Fear, panic and fatigue have long
since left me.  I no longer live to
be happy some day.  I am happy
now. I live because I want to and
love because it is inherently part
of me.  I deal with emotions...I
talk it out.  You aren't a criminal!
  You aren't bad! Believe it on faith
until you are able to feel the truth
of knowing you are worth loving.
March 31, 1998

Lacy Terry
20
I am perfect in
the eyes of God.
April 1, 1998

Amanda Rust
17
I am a survivor, but no one will
ever hear me say it was easy!
  When things get tough, I think
of turning back, but I haven't
yet.  Get help, it's worth it.  I
didn't think so before, but now,
I'm on the other side and I
can see straight. I know that it
was the right thing to do.
April 1, 1998

Amy S.
22
Believe your friends when they
tell you something is wrong.
They love you and wouldn't lie
to you.  I am coming to terms
with anorexia thanks to a friend
who made me see.  At first I
hated her, but now I realize she
probably helped save my life.
April 1, 1998

Amanda Y.
14
I am anorexic. I love to count
calories and fat grams. I do it
everyday.  It's an obsession
that burns a hole in you.  I'm
starting to accept the fact
that I have a problem and
someday maybe I will be
strong enough to get help.
April 1, 1998

Leslie Kramer
17
For three years of my
life, I have simply
existed...I've hid
behind the iron walls
of anorexia and
bulimia...it is time to
live again.  I just hope
I can remember how.
April 1, 1998

Julia S.
16
I am going through the most
difficult thing I have ever gone
through. I don't know if I could
have done this if it wasn't for
the support from my friends. I
need to learn to love myself,
and to take care of myself.
April 1, 1998

Sue Prullage
42
Forgive yourself and keep fighting.
Fighting an ED is awful.  For me,
every time I practiced bulimia I
could then beat myself up and tell
myself, "see how bad you are, you
can't control your own body." It's
not about control, it's about
respecting yourself.  Get help
and love yourself.
April 1, 1998

Ashley Macdonell
18
Life can be worth
living, if you make
it possible.
April 1, 1998

Karen Steele
30
If you could forget
who you think you
are, you might catch
up with what you
really are and
can't see.
April 2, 1998

Osh C.
14
"Whenever God closes a door
he opens a window." Julie
Andrews used this line in The
Sound of Music and I have used
it and am still using it to get me
through this tough time of having
an eating disorder.  It simply means
that there is always hope, and we
should all remember that.
April 2, 1998

Laura R.
20
I believe that God will
help us all if we allow
Him to. My best friend
and I are struggling with
eating disorders and I
want to dedicate this to
Moriah, because I love
her so much!
April 4, 1998

Malissa K.
18
Anorexia doesn't mean the end and it
isn't something that you have to live
with forever.  I let anorexia become
me and I lost six years of my life. I
am finally beginning to feel like a
complete person.  I am grateful to
my friends who convinced me that I
couldn't win this battle alone. I have
so much to look forward to!
April 4, 1998

Lisa Jebsen
29
I won the battle with bulimia the day
I gave it up for me and no one else.
  The day I won the war was the day I
refused to accept our lookist society's
reconceptions of what I should look
like.  Recognize the hypocracy in
our society!  We all do not have to
look like models.  Love yourself and
other unconditionally.
April 5, 1998

Shawna Waterford
19
Somehow waiting and not being sure
was better than action she couldn't
believe in.  I have battled anorexia/
bulimia for 8 years, have been home
from Remunda Ranch for 7 months
and am finding that this journey
toward wholeness isn't an easy one,
but is most definitely worth all of the
agony and effort.  I wish you all
strength and courage.
April 6, 1998

Shoshanna Corner
38
There is life at the end of
the tunnel.  Recovery is
possible and you can move
ahead.  You are a valuable
person!  God can give you
the courage to have a new
life! You are worth it!!!
April 6, 1998

Morgan Ward
24
I define the boundaries
of my body, my life, my
thoughts with words of
love, reminding me just
how powerful I am to
still be alive.
April 6, 1998

Alicia D.
18
"I can do anything through
Christ, who give me strength."
-Philippians 4:13
I am precious in the sight of the
Lord and He's the only one that
truly matters to me. His grace
(and love)  is sufficient for me.
April 6, 1998

Lourdes Aguilera
27
It's never too late to think
about you.  You have to be
strong enough to accept
that you have an eating
disorder and to seek help.
April 6, 1998

Kelly Rock
19
"Go ahead and cry. I
will catch your tears."
-Jileen Russell
April 8, 1998

Leah Roley
19
I am so tired of this illness, doctors
and  hospitals.  I finally have a life I
am proud of, but my health threatens
to ruin it.  Every day I try to remember
life in the state hospital so I know why
I don't want to go through this again.
"You've got your whole life to do
something and that's not very long..."
-Ani DiFranco
April 8, 1998

Mary Ann Nystrom
31
When you come to the edge of
all you have known and must
jump fearfully into the Land of
the Unknown, remember this:
either you will grow wings, or
you will be taught how to fly.
Either way, you will rise above
your eating disorder.  If I can
do it, anyone can!
April 8, 1998

Antonia Vena
24
This is my
life!!!
April 10, 1998

Tara Poole
18
Through unconditional love
I found the hope, courage,
and strength to battle and
free myself of the voices
within. "Love is the answer
and that is all you need to
know."-John Lennon
April 12, 1998

Sandra Parcher
20
I would not have made it if I had
not found God! He is the answer.
But  I had to let someone in first
and trusting is so hard to do. God
loves me and He loves you too.
The love in your heart wasn't
put there to stay.  Love isn't love
'till you give it away. God Bless.
April 12, 1998

Alison S.
14
It's hard to make the
first step, but it can
be done! Good luck.
April 12, 1998

Bree Forcier
25
I'm not always perfect...but
I'm always me! After six
years of bulimia I'm finally
beginning to learn who I am
and even love myself.  God
may have chosen me for
this battle but I'm chosing
to fight it...and win!
April 13, 1998

Anneke Rose Rarey
18
I have been anorexic for about a
year and a half. The road to recovery
has been rough, but I have learned to
take it one day at a time. There are
still some days that are very hard, but
I want to be a survivor, not a statistic.
That is enough to keep me hanging on.
You will be alright...just take it one
step at a time.
April 14, 1998

Wenddee D.
58
I have the key to
my recovery. With
God's help, I will
have the courage
to use it.
April 14, 1998

Samantha Kay
16
I have suffered with anorexia
for years now and am afraid I
am relapsing.  I am a certain
size in womens jeans, which
makes me feel very upset. I
don't know what I am doing. I
eat but never ever gain weight.
Please never give up!
April 14, 1998

Robin Dawn Palmer
34
"Do not worry about
tomorrow."-Matthew 6:34
"Trust God where you cannot
trace Him. Do not try to
penetrate the cloud He brings
over you;  rather look to the
bow that is on it. The mystery
of God's promise is yours."
-John MacDuff
April 14, 1998

Jenni Wagner
23
I am learning that each
person is a beautiful
flower. I choose to be
the rose. I am removing
the thorns of my eating
disorder one by one,
day by day, hour by
hour, ounce by ounce. I
will survive...we all will.
April 14, 1998

Jennifer Lucas
19
Even though I am physically
recovered, I still have trouble
mentally and emotionally.  But
I take it day by day and am
proud at how far I've come!
Never give up! It's worth it in
the long run!!!
April 16, 1998

Kate MacTavish
35
After twenty years, I
finally see it, feel it,
know it. My life is
better without bulimia.
April 17, 1998

Brandi McCooey
24
A survivor and
proud of it!!!
April 18, 1998

Christie Lyn Ginieczki
23
Don't loose faith, there is
always hope to catch us
when we feel we are falling.
April 19, 1998

Elizabeth H.
17
"If I don't like something, I
don't give it my time, I won't
give it my life."-Perry Farrell
It's not worth the risks and it's
not worth losing control.
April 20, 1998

Nicole Larson
18
I am not perfect. It has
taken four years to
come to terms but I am
here and I am proud.
April 20, 1998

Jon Jackinchuk
20
It is better on the
other side!
Recovery is worth
the effort.
April 20, 1998

Becki Whysall
14
It seems like a never ending
tunnel of dark, but there is
always the light that comes with
recovery.  Anorexia is controlling,
but you are stronger than it, don't
give up and remember that someone
always loves you, no matter what.
April 20, 1998

Kate O'Meara
18
I know I'm strong but
something has taken me
captive...I can barely see
the light.  Sometimes it
is there but the clouds
come again.
April 21, 1998

Shannon Nichols
29
I will fight for my life. The
end result is being able to
see my little ones grow up.
   What more can I ask then
the joy of my life?
April 23, 1998

Susan Hamilton
31
Remember you are not alone and
to take it one meal at a time.
  Recovery is our own and we must
take ownership of it and make it
our own.  We have to.  The choice
is death if we don't.  I am thankful
that I have found my recovery and
began the long road of healing.
We can do it!  Keep the faith!
April 23, 1998

Emily Plevyak
21
Behind every cloud
the sun shines.
April 25, 1998

Sarah Taylor
16
Stepping out into the sun
will hurt your eyes. Get
used to it.  The dark will
kill you.
April 25, 1998

Kirsten Stearns
18
God grant me the serenity to
accept the things I cannot
change, the courage to change
the things I can, and the wisdom
to know the difference.
April 25, 1998

DeAnna K.
26
I will make it.  We all
have a chance to make
it.  It is up to us to use
that chance.
April 25, 1998

Kristy Preston
20
Sometimes you have to look reality in the
face...and then deny it. Recovery is the
hardest part of an ED...but I survived and
I know you can too. Food cannot control
you, you have to control you. God Bless
all of you who are struggling with the hell...
but believe me, I have faith in you that
once you make up your mind to recover,
you have the power within yourself to do so.
April 28, 1998

Helen Stettner
21
The pain of staying the same is
greater than the pain of change.
Sometimes it is far more comfortable
to live in familiar pain than to take a
risk at happiness because of the fear
of failing.  It is vital to give yourself
credit for the agony you have survived
thoughout life.
April 29, 1998

Lisa A. Hoig
36
"I would go to the gates of hell with
a friend. Through thick and thin. 
The other said as he bit off the
concha's end, I would go in."
-John Ernest McCann
Thank you Christ Jesus. Thank you
family and friends. I have much value.
I see it now. The eyes are opening.
The voices are fading. I am worthy,
each of us is worthy.
April 30, 1998

Jennifer Marrs
26
I will no longer admire women whose thighs
do not touch. I know that is a sign of weakness.
  When I was starving, I felt like I was flying.
Now I realize that I was not flying, but falling.
Treatment is painful, but I am at a point where
I feel as if I am waking up after a bad dream.
Thanks Carl for making me see, and Bill for
not walking away. Eat to live!
April 30, 1998

Mand L.
22
There can be no
rainbow, without
a storm and a
cloud.
April 30, 1998

Angie Frenette
20
Never give up on yourself. Follow
the path that God has lighted for
you and you will never go wrong.
  Let Him take care of you,  put
your life into His hands, He won't
let you down.
April 30, 1998

Paul J. Domkowski
17
I have been through it all;
depression, suicide, OCD,
psychosis, and I find those
are pale compared to the
horrors of anorexia.  Today
is the first day of help and
of my new life.
April 30, 1998

Amy Agee
26
There is no strength
when there is no
struggle.
May 1, 1998

Amanda B.
17
I'm taking the first step...I
just admitted to myself that
I was anorexic...I've got a
long, hard road ahead of me,
but I'm going to make it.
May 2, 1998

Nandi Anne Baldwin
19
We are children of God,
Free Spirits! We are not
our bodies!!!
May 3, 1998

Eliza Barlow
18
It is time for us survivors
and our friends to speak
out and let the world know
that people are dying. We
owe it to the dead and we
own it to ourselves.
May 3, 1998

Meghan A.
18
Thank God for Little Miracles!
I had bulimia for three years. My
boyfriend helped me through it and
now we are expecting our first baby!
I am glad I found someone to help
me and bring me such happiness.
May 3, 1998

Menley Menthen
12
I can and I will get
through this. Anorexia
is like a cage that has
kept me trapped, and
I would like to get out!
May 3, 1998

Suzie Elliott
27
That girl was always
falling again and again,
but she always got
back up.
May 4, 1998

Kate Glorioso
20
Each and every day is a struggle, and
for some of us this is the way it's going
to be. We've made a big achievement in
that we got help. The road to recovery
is a long and hard one, but it'll be worth
it! Just take one day at a time and think
positive, and also be thankful that you
have some friends that understand and
can support you.  To all of you--I know
you can do it.  It's worth it!
May 4, 1998

Debra Hulbert
31
There is such a
thing as recovery.
May 4, 1998

Jessica S.
21
I walked to the edge
of the cliff, stepped
off, and waited to
crash. But...instead
I flew, I soared!
October 9, 1997...I
found freedom from
anorexia.
May 6, 1998

Carol Swett
43
Recovery can occur, I struggled
for thirteen years with bulimia
and anorexia and now finally
feel healthy from within.  "What
a glorious Lord! He who daily
bears our burdens also gives us
our salvation."-Ps. 68:19
May 6, 1998

Erin L.
16
"I hear you're losing weight again
Mary Jane.  Do you ever wonder
  who you're  losing it for?"
- Alanis Morisette
This quote sums up my life since
last October. I never wondered
who I was losing it for or why I
was losing it, I just knew that I
"had" to lose it, no matter what
I couldn't ever get fat."
May 8, 1998

Meg O'Sullivan
15
"And the best thing you've ever done for  me
was to help me take life less seriously, it's
only life afterall."-The Indigo Girls
Thank you and much peace and love to my
family, Alison, Carolyn, Jess, Erin, Kristin,
Mo, Nick and Molly, and all my teachers
and friends. I love you all. For all those who
are suffering or have suffered, directly or
indirectly from eating disorders, I respect
you and love you all.
May 9, 1998

Kelli Beach
24
"As children bring their toys to us to
mend, I brough my broken dreams to
God because He was my friend. But
then instead of leaving Him in peace
to work alone, I hung around and tried
to help with ways that were my own. 
At last I snatched them back and cried,
"How can you be so slow?" "My child"
He said, "What could I do? You never
did let go."- Author Unknown
May 9, 1998

Stacy Ramberg
17
Recovery is a long road to follow.
No one should have to take it. But
some of us have a choice, life or
death. Let's all chose life.  It may
be tough, but somehow God will
give us the strength.
May 10, 1998

Crista Ward
16
Through God all things
are possible!  I truly
believe that and believe
one day I will be rid of
this problem and praise
be to God!
May 12, 1998

Gary Ogborn
34
I want very much
to learn how to
love myself.
May 13, 1998

Aliza Melamed
15
To dream of the
person you want
to be, is to waste
the person you are.
May 13, 1998

Christine Millush
15
Don't quit. When things go wrong as
they sometimes will. When the road
you're trudging seems all uphill. When
the funds are low, and the debts are
high. And you want to smile, but you
have to sigh. When care is pressing
you down a bit, rest if you must, but
don't you quit. To my friend Brady who
is also suffering, I love you and I will
support you through this whole thing.
May 13, 1998

Melissa R.
16
Take it day-by-day,
step-by-step. Believe
in God, He helps those
who help themselves.
May 14, 1998

Karen K.
37
I've been bulimic since 15.
Someone here wrote, "If
you are still alive, then God
hasn't given up on you." I'm
not sure why, but I know I'm
here through the Grace of
God and I continue to pray
for a miracle. Lord, give us
the strength to persevere.
May 17, 1998

Laci Snyder
17
I am a recovering anorexic. I
truly believe if you have faith in
the Lord you to can begin the
road to recovery. This will not be
an easy road, but just remember
to never give up. God loves you
for who you are. You can become
a strong, healthy person if you
only leave everything you're
feeling up to the Lord. Trust me,
you will make it. God Bless!!
May 17, 1998

Marisa Pizzano
21
When things get tough,
turn to God for help.
He will see you through
the pain. Life is worth
living. All of us have to
believe that we will over
come this. You can do it!
May 18, 1998

Ellie Wieland
17
When we are practicing our
disease, we are like battered
women protecting our abusers.
When we leave our abusers, we
find the life we never thought
was out there.  Take my hand,
take up space, and together we
can take over the world.
May 18, 1998

Sally Kissel
19
"Never give up! Recovery is
worth fighting for." This is so
true. If you can battle this,
you're ready for anything that
the world has to offer you!
Good luck and keep strong!!
May 19, 1998

Aimee Michel
16
I believe that you can
recover! I am just
starting to recover
and I believe that
anybody can do it.
May 20, 1998

Lori Hefelfinger
16
"Although the world is
full of suffering...It is
also full of overcoming
it."- Helen Keller
May 21, 1998

Jessie Faulkner
21
Remember to honor your body
as you do your mind and soul.
Keep your self sacred physically,
emotionally, and mentally.
May 21, 1998

Erin Dodd
18
I am anorexic. There I said
it. I have lived under this
dark cloud long enough. I'm
ready for some sunshine.
Help me Lord, place your
healing hand upon me.
May 22, 1998

Nancy Viscovich
28
I once thought I was recovered.
Although I look good and feel
better, relapses occur. But now
I know it takes a tough person
to battle ED, someone tough
and strong like us.
We can do it!
May 22, 1998

Keri G.
18
To overcome the fears
and frustrations you
experience throughout
your journey, you
must first begin by
believing in yourself.
May 22, 1998

Monique Matthews
21
I survived and with the
grace of God and the
love of those around you,
it can be beaten! (((hugs)))
Remember that you are
beautiful no matter what
anyone says. Beauty is
found within.
May 25, 1998

Sara Kate
15
If you do what you've always
done, you'll get what you've
always gotten.  If only it were
easier to change bad habits.
May 25, 1998

Sara Nahshon
15
I am not yet recovered from
anorexia and bulimia, but I'm on
my way. This is the hardest thing
I've ever had to go through. I've
lost so much because of this
disorder, but I'm determined not
to lose my life..."Love is all you
need." - John Lennon
May 25, 1998

Tracey Hassinger
27
There is no failure,
except in no longer
trying.
March 26, 1998

Susan Pollett
20
When we stop the denial, the healing
begins.  Our lives are precious gifts
from God and He wants us to be
happy and healthy.  We can do it!
I am at the beginning of a very long
road. Along the road are many twists
and turns, yet somehow there is a
light ahead that pulls me. Reach for
the light and step out of the darkness!!!
May 26, 1998

Robyn Hundley
31
I'm a single Mom.
If I can do it,
anyone can!
May 27, 1998

Dana Puskarich
19
Never give up fighting
because everyone of us
wants to live!!! There
are so many more
important aspects in
life then our appearance!
I love you all!!!
May 27, 1998

Alexis Johnso
14
I hope every one of you can
all catch your shooting star
someday. "Destiny is not a
matter of chance it's a matter
of choice. It's not a thing to
be waited for, it's a thing to
be achieved." Best wishes.
May 27, 1998

Nicole L.
20
I have not made it yet, but I
will. I want to come back to
this page in a year and say,
"Wow! Look at me now!"
God help me keep the
courage to get help and give
me the strength to use it.
May 27, 1998

Diana Gentry
52
Fear of the unknown is like
a brick wall on the path of
life. Scaling it is slippery
and difficult - but I can
reach the other side.
May 28, 1998

Julie E.
22
Anorexia is the hardest thing I
will ever have to deal with.  I
would not wish it on my worst
enemy! It has shown me that
life is very short and that letting
this horrid disorder take over is
a crime. Live life to the fullest
while you can.
May 29, 1998

Erica Bender
21
"I am beautiful."
This phrase is only
effective if repeated
daily on a consistent
basis.
May 29, 1998

Michelle M.
21
"Far away in the sunshine
are my highest aspirations.
I may not reach them, but
I can look up and see their
beauty, believe in them, and
try to follow where they
lead."-Louisa May Allcott
May 29, 1998

Amy Laurel Steffan
26
Eating or not eating
isn't  worth dying for.
God gave me the
strength to go on
and fight.
May 29, 1998

Jaclyn Ryerson
16
God, grant me the serenity to
accept the things I cannot
change, the courage to change
the things I can, and the wisdom
to know the difference.
May 29, 1998

Becca S.
14
I read the wall and I cried,
for we are all sisters and
brothers caught in the night.
A dark black night of pain
and self-hate, for I still hate
myself, but now I know I
don't have to.
May 30, 1998

Karen Martin
16
I have been struggling with
anorexia for 3 years. I just
need to use the strength I
have to fight this ED. I give
everyone here major credit
for what they're going through,
I know it isn't easy. But you
can make it and I can to.
May 30, 1998

Courtney Bailey
21
I have depended on walls
to block my pain, anger,
and fear. Now it's time
for me to do the scariest,
hardest thing of my life--
bring those walls down
and start to live.
May 31, 1998

Kristen Saulnier
24
When you're drowning, you
can still see the light until
you stop swimming. Never
give up. I feel free, alive,
and capable of love for the
first time in my life. You
must believe you deserve
love! You can make it!
May 31, 1998

Kathleen Dawson
17
*A Figure Skater's Note*
You don't necessarily
have to be
"Thin to Win!"
June 2, 1998

Jennie Lis
26
Recovering has been
difficult...but at least
I'm trying...just taking
one day at a time.
June 3, 1998

Leslie W.
18
I am not quite sure I will ever
recover because every relapse
is worse then the one before,
but I will always keep my head
to the skies because I know one
day my dreams will come true
and my prayers will be answered.
June 4, 1998

Amy Asher
18
Take baby steps
in order to learn
to walk.
June 4, 1998

Beth Gately
17
Take that first step. It will
always seem like the hardest
one, but once you've done it,
all the rest seems just a little
bit easier.  I know, I did it.
June 6, 1998

Jessie Vice
32
Work as if you don't need the
money, love as if you have
never been hurt, and dance as
if no one is watching!  I have
learned it doesn't matter what
size you are, God loves you.
June 6, 1998

Laura Robertson
42
I never knew how
free my body and
mind could be. I am
now free to deal with
life without the E.D.
June 6, 1998

Rebecca Throop
27
My grandma has told me
that life is a gift - right now
I cannot seem to get the tape
off the fake colored paper to
get to the beautiful reality of
the gift underneath - but I know
the tape will fall off sometime
and I look forward to opening -
everyone should open their
gift because they all can do it!
June 6, 1998

Kim R.
30
Every day, I see people treat
food as a tasty, nourishing part
of life. This is my hope; that I
will reclaim from food all the
wishes, pains, gladness and
frustrations with which I have
burdened it, and take them on
myself; that I will dare to laugh,
cry, rage, love and struggle with
the world in simple honesty.
June 7, 1998

Natalie Joy Gearing
14
"Sing to the Lord! Give praise to
the Lord! He rescues the life
of the needy."-Jeremiah 20:13
Look for the good things in life
and know that He will help if you
ask. Never doubt His love and
belief in you.
June 7, 1998

Molly K.
13
I do not understand this horrible disease,
it has taken so many wonderful things out
of my life. I have hurt my family and myself.
So many things travel throughout my head
each day and I don't know how to stop them
or how I will recover.  I pray for you all and
remember this: "My mind and my body may
grow weak, but God is my strength He is
all I will ever need." - Psalm 73:26
June 8, 1998

Marsha B.
40
That which does not kill us
only makes us stronger.
This will not kill me and
I will be strong.
June 9, 1998

Barbara Cummings
35
To look into my child's eyes and to see such
love, gave me the strength to fight and win
my battle with anorexia. I thank God every
day, for the words, "I love you mommy!"
These words were the medicine I needed to
recover. My daughters are miracles and I
will not let myself fall. Find your strength.
There is a miracle out there for you too.
June 9, 1998

Jen P.
27
I have learned that I don't
have to be perfect and
neither do you.
June 10, 1998

Danielle McKee
14
Keep trying, you
will make it!!!
June 10, 1998

Lena M.
20
I want to be my loveable self
again! I want to stand firm on
my feet again! I want to regain
my strength and be proud of
myself. For I know I was born
to succeed and be happy!!!
June 13, 1998

Jenny Gallo
15
Don't be afraid to get help. There is nothing
to be ashamed of. It  feels wonderful when
you do get help, although it is hard at first.
I am still  in the process of recovering from
this horrible demon called anorexia. Every
day is worth living,  though, so  I fight with
all my strength to overcome this.  God be
with you and don't ever give up hope!
June 14, 1998

Lauren B.
16
I know that all this loathing and hatred
mean something much more than a
burning desire to be thin. I know that
all of my tears are worth something much
more. And I know I have the strength, a
special power within myself, to find what
it all means. I wish everyone good luck
in their recovery. Hang in there. Also I
pray that one day we will all find the
peace of mind we've been craving.
June 14, 1998

Lorretta G.
19
I just took the first step yesterday
at 1 A.M. I decided that I deserve
to be happy just like everyone else.
I should be able to be out with my
friends and stop living like a hermit.
I must learn that happiness comes
from the inside, not the outside.
June 15, 1998

Tracey Tubbs
28
I'm a victim of an eating disorder. I'm
facing my eating disorder with faith and
courage. I'm taking this journey knowing
that my recovery doesn't have to be
perfect. Be gentle with yourself and take
care of your inner child. Allow her to grow.
Thanks to my family for not giving up on
me. May my guardian angel watch over
me.  I want my life back!
June 16, 1998

Kristin P.
18
It's a relief to see that I'm not
alone in this battle. It's a long
and painful road to recovery
but I believe that our goals are
attainable. We must put an end
to the insanity that grips us.
"Every new beginning comes
from some other beginning's
end." - Semi Sonic
June 18, 1998

De'Lana McFarland
21
"the shackled anger I was
accustomed to...reflected
on me...and with every tear
there were a thousand more
that needed to follow so I
could climb from the darkness
that surrounded me..."
June 18, 1998

Marcia B.
17
Right now, I cannot beat
this for me. But, Doll,
I will beat it for you. 
Someday, I will have
beaten it for me.
June 20, 1998

Virginia B.
18
Every day, I take a little step
forward on the road to recovery.
I eat a little more, I don't weigh
myself, I don't run that extra mile.
I believe I will and can get better
in time!
June 20, 1998

Jessica Arnett
16
Let God fight along beside you. My struggle
with anorexia has almost left me dead. After
two lengthy stays in the hospital with a weak
heart and too thin to be permitted to walk, I
have realized all that the demon has taken
from me. As I fight to stay alive, I pray that
you can also find strength within yourself to
reclaim what was lost and move on. Living is
about just being alive! We deserve it!
June 21, 1998

Jean Bull
29
I am sad at my past, but has made me
fight. I have fought all of my life. I am
now owning up to my eating disorder
that has helped me cope all these years.
I now accept it's time to get help.  If
anyone see's this out there, do the same,
seek help. Life is worth living, we just
have to figure out how.
June 21, 1998

Amanda Griggs
17
I am ready to beat anorexia. I have been
in treatment and hospitalized before. I am
determined to let it work this time. I am now
working to regain myself. There is no use
letting this disease beat me, I will beat it. I
an a survivor so far and I hope to continue
to get better.  I have good days and bad days
but I just hope that soon I will have more
good than bad days.
June 24, 1998

Casey Graham
18
There comes a time when one must
risk something or sit forever with
ones dreams. The little steps I
take every day in battling my ED
are all risks; but without taking
them I may very well never live
my dream.
June 25, 1998

Kristina J.
17
Keep the faith.
June 26, 1998

Alisa Harrison
25
I gave up my anorexia when I
found my voice. I am proud
of being powerful and taking
up space I deserve. Take
care everyone!
June 26, 1998

Laylee M.
20
I will succeed because I have
decided to!  I will not let food
make me a victim. Take charge
this minute, don't wait for
tomorrow or when you lose ten
pounds or whatever, find the
strength and live!
June 26, 1998

Emily Rose Dunn
18
"I finally figured out the only
reason to be alive is to
enjoy it." - Rita Mae Brown
"It is never too late to be
what you might have been."
-George Eliot
June 27, 1998

Lynne Potter
20
I pray for the day when
the eating disorder
thoughts are behind me,
like the behavior is
(at the moment) and I
hope I can continue to
stay well.
June 28, 1998

Denise Mayo
18
Without my ED, I can live and
blossom! For over four years, it
has brought pain, guilt, shame,
and misery into my life.  But I
am stronger than my ED.  And
it will never take anything else
away from me again,  because
I deserve better!
June 28, 1998

Stephanie Rebels
27
Although I struggle
every day, I am not
alone, for Jesus
holds my hand.
June 29, 1998

Stacey Mckay
18
Always be a first rate version
of yourself, instead of a second
rate version of someone else.
Learn to love yourself the way
you are, because you are a
unique individual.
June 29, 1998

Amy Bivins
16
I have been fighting with bulimia for
almost five years, and the depression
that resulted from it almost killed me.
Please fight this thing, you can take the
control back! There are so many people
out there who care for you and want to
help so let them! Survival is worth fighting
for, and God will carry you through!
June 29, 1998

Liane Clancy
18
I've been living with anorexia for four
years and many times I thought I wouldn't
make it through the night. I decided that
I'm not going to let this demon destroy
me. I've lost too much precious time and
I'm not going to lose my life. To all those
who have supported me, I couldn't have
gotten this far without you. Thank you for
saving my life! To my 3 TP friends, never
give up the fight!
June 30, 1998

Abbie Bezner
18
Don't fear the future,
it will only get better.
July 1, 1998

Laura Guenther
22
Life is too precious to waste
another day as a prisoner of
an eating disorder! Please
fight it - we're worth it!!!
July 2, 1998

Samantha Sawyer
19
Believe in yourself and never
stop fighting. Though recovery
seems distant and foreign, reach
for it with all that you've got,
and you'll find it to be closer
than you ever imagined
July 2, 1998

Claudine M.
14
Eating disorders are
like addictions, but
like any addiction, we
can overcome it.
July 5, 1998

Tamara Longpre
28
After nearly ten years of recovery,
I am waging my battle once again.
It seems harder than ever this time
around, but I will keep fighting.
Thank you all for your inspiration!
July 5, 1998

Lynn Hegg
28
You don't have to run away
if you can learn to just say:
enough, enough, enough.
And mean it.  Tell your
eating disorder that you
have had enough.
July 5, 1998

Kelly McElroy
23
Let go and
let God.
July 5, 1998

Elisabeth Vanderveld
18
I chose to write today because seven
is my lucky number.  For two years I
thought I had eluded my demons, but
now they seem to be returning.  I am
reading all these stories and they make
my heart cry. I just hope that I can
remember again how to make my heart
cry for myself.  Nothing is impossible,
find your passion in life and never let go!
July 7, 1998

Allegra Buttinelli
15
"Look behind the clouds, you
will always find the stars."
This is so true, once you
free yourself from the ED,
you will have a new life that's
full of happiness. Take care
of yourselves:)
July 7, 1998

Ciara Bolton
15
Always live life to it's fullest. You only
have one chance. I've been hospitalized
twice and it's not fun and it's a lot better
to just try my best and be as strong as I
can out here. I don't want this monster
anymore and I am going to defeat it. It
just takes strength and a lot of support.
So remember you are always loved and
just hang in there!
July 8, 1998

Lindsay E.
16
I survived a quick three months of
bulimia at age fifteen, but I have
never stopped loathing myself.  I
feel I will never know happiness
until I am at a certain weight.  I
find peace in knowing that Jesus is
the only one who does not dwell on
appearances.  When I go to meet
Him, I will finally find peace.
July 9, 1998

Margo Padwe
23
I spent my eighteenth birthday
Dec. 30, 1992 in the hospital
recovering from anorexia. On
June 20, 1998 I ran a marathon
at a healthy, strong, and happy
weight.  It's not only possible
to recover, but the results can
reach beyond your wildest
dreams.
July 12, 1998

Linda Violago
28
Believe in yourself. You will never
fail; just take "baby steps" and
be forgiving of yourself.  Be
patient. You may take ten steps
forward and then five steps back,
but don't give up because then
you will soon go forward again.
July 12, 1998

Jennifer Feldpausch
15
Don't be ashamed
to get help!
July 13, 1998