Survivors Wall – Eating Disorders

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Colleen Thompson

28

Taking the first step and
letting go of old securities,
means unlocking the door
for my inner child allowing
her to grow, heal and be all
that she never thought she
could be. “The Lord is close
to the brokenhearted and
saves those who are crushed
in spirit” – Psalm 34:18

July 13, 1997

 


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Amy Medina – Something Fishy

27

It is not a broken mirror telling
lies, but my own head reflecting
images of self-hate back to me
through its looking glass. I am
the only one who can find the
answers to the magic and
power of fixing what has been
broken for a long time.

July 13, 1997


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Aimee M. Harms

28

The ED is not your fault,
but it is your fault if you
hold on to it. Regain your
strength and conquer the
inner demons! Be your
own best friend and be
good to yourself! You
deserve all that life has
to offer! Best of luck to
all of you!!!

July 14, 1997

 


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Paula MacLean

24

Recovery is worthwhile for the
happy future we deserve. The
road may seem like a long
hard struggle, but the continued
fighting to recovery is something
that we so rightly deserve.
Always remember you are
not alone and love is just
a phone call away!

July 14, 1997


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Anna Campion

25

Just do it! There will never be a
“right time” to begin recovery.
Recovering from an eating disorder
is the most challenging task that
I have ever undertaken. There are
many risks involved in the recovery
process, but they are worth it! Being
gentle with yourself is important in
preventing slips from becoming relapses.
The opportunities offered through
recovering are endless.

July 15, 1997

 


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Debbie Fradin

30

I REFUSE to give up
faith in beating this
killer anorexia. Even
if I go to my grave
screaming, “Give me
that can of Ensure!”

July 18, 1997

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Michelle Comeau

27

They that wait upon the Lord
shall renew their strength;
they shall mount up with
wings as eagles; they shall
run, and not be weary; and
they shall walk, and not faint.
Isaiah 41:31

July 30, 1997

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Adrienne Marie Furney

17

Good day’s can let you down and
bad day’s can make you strong
in the end! I’ve been through both
I understand. Setting goals for
ourselves with a positive picture
and believing that every challenge
is worth the embrace. We must
stay on track not for everybody
else, but for ourselves because
we are terrific!

July 31, 1997

 


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Kelle Reach

19

You gain strength, courage, and
confidence in every experience
in which you stop to look fear
in the face – Eleanor Roosevelt
I have faced my eating disorder
and have emerged with more
strength, courage, and
confidence than I had before –
I am stronger than this disease
and will continue in faith.

August 25, 1997


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Lynn Killins

24

The sky isn’t always blue,
the sun doesn’t always shine.
It’s alright to fall apart…
sometimes. – Robert Miles
Make the most of yourself,
for that is all there is of you.
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

August 26, 1997

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Tanya Rene Curran

21

Your life is up to you.
Life provides the canvas;
you do the painting.
Take charge of your life
or someone else will.
– author unknown

August 28, 1997

 

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Melissa Brown

28

You learn an eating disorder
over time. It takes a while to
unlearn it. Be patient with
yourself. Forgive yourself,
as you forgive others.

August 29, 1997

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Stephanie Dionne

20

I don’t know if I qualify as a
survivor yet; guess I’m still a
victim. After going through the
recovery/relapse roller coaster
several times, I can vouch for
the importance of relying on loved
ones for strength and support.
Never give up!

August 29, 1997

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Kell H.

18

If you look inside and
have the want to
recover you will rise
above it. It may take
time, but have faith!

September 2, 1997

 

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Cortney Lofler

16

There are no quick fixes but with Christ
there is hope and healing. It is hard
to overcome an eating disorder but with
God’s help anything is possible Phil.4:13
When you feel you can’t take it anymore,
take it to the LORD. Everyone who is
fighting I hope you overcome your eating
disorder. I want to let everyone know it
is worth it to fight.

September 14, 1997

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Amber Entzel

15

I hate making myself purge but yet,
it’s the only way I know to stay thin.
Looks really shouldn’t matter as
much as they do to me, but we all
know they do. God’s strength is the
thing that get’s through the good days.
I now that if I didn’t have Him, I’d be
dead by now. So just remember to
always look heavenward for hope,
love, and support!!!

September 15, 1997

 

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Nicole D.

18

I never in a million years
thought I could stop. But
I did and I love myself
even more now. Even if I
don’t have the perfect body,
I have my health back.

September 17, 1997

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Christina Kazanas

24

Scales are for fish…
NOT WOMEN!

September 18, 1997

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Aly Stealey

17

I am continually amazed at how easy
it is to live; to just live and love and
feel. However, my anorexia has not
been completely banished. I believe
it will always be there, tucked just
behind my ear to remind me of how
strong I am and how much others love
me and exactly what is important in
life. But I can say for sure that I now
have anorexia; it doesn’t have me.
Thank you to the Renfrew Center
for all your help.

September 17, 1997

 

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Vanessa Gardner

34

The single most
powerful investment
we can ever make
in life is investment
in ourselves.

October 10, 1997

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Kimberly Burns

21

I may be a long way
to the end of the path
of recovery but I will
try my hardest.
Good luck to all of you!

October 11, 1997

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Kathryn Wilkins

20

To everyone fighting an eating disorder is
hard but in the end it’s worth it. Keep
fighting you can make it. “Even youths
grow tired and weary and young men
stumble and fall but those who trust in
the Lord will renew their strength. They
will soar on wings like eagles and they
will run and not grow weary and they
shall walk and not faint.” – Isaish 40:31.
Trust in the Lord, He will help you to
overcome this because He loves you.

October 12, 1997

 

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Gianna LaRose

20

The caged bird sings with a
fearful trill of things unknown
but longed for still and his
tune is heard on the distant
hill for the caged bird sings
of freedom. – Maya Angelou

October 27, 1997

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Nina A.

32

I must gather all of
my inner strength
and be strong- for
my own sake – I will
learn how!

October 27, 1997

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Stacey Nance

14

Hang in there. I have had an ED
since sixth grade and I’m a
freshman in high school now and
I face it everyday of my life. It
comes back and haunts me everyday.
It’s hard to stop and Lord knows
how much I enjoyed it and the way
it made me feel. But please get help
and and talk about it to someone.
I’m glad I caught it when I did.

October 28, 1997

 

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Courtney Brooks

18

That which does not kill me, will
only make me stronger – Nietzsche
Too many people care for me to turn
my back and lose the battle. I may
never be completely better. I’ll never
eat butter, but slowly I’ll learn to cope
and maybe eat a dessert without guilt.
I love you family, coaches, and Kim.
May God help us all stray from
the dark and run to Him.

October 28, 1997

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Colleen Bradbury

22

Each day when you look in the
mirror, believe in yourself and
be reminded that you are stronger
than this demon. Ask yourself if it
is worth your life and the lives of
your loved ones whom your death
would affect forever. I fight this
everyday like too many others, but
I remind myself of the ones I love so
much and draw strength from them.

October 28, 1997

 

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Becca C.

18

Terminal anorexia is very unfair. However,
I have fought for 7 years and intend to
live. I will not let it kill me now or ever.
“I love the moon and the moon loves me
God bless the moon and God bless me
When I lay me down to sleep
From the corner he does peep
When I close my eyes I see
That the moon is watching over me
I love the moon and the moon loves me
God bless the moon and God bless me.”
Now and forever choose life!!!

November 10, 1997

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Nicole Harris

19

Always remember there are
people out there who love you
and will do anything to help
you get through it. It doesn’t
matter how hard we push them
away! Thanks to everyone
that was there for me!

November 10, 1997

 

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Abigail Petrick

18

In the four years that I have
had this disease, I have
grown stronger and braver.
Now, as I am entering my
first relapse, I am incredibly
scared, but I know that I can
do it. Because if I can’t, no
one will do it for me. I want
to live, and I will. I will beat
this monster inside of me!

November 10, 1997

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Allison Berry

17

I sit here with tears in
my eyes as I read about
these struggles to live.
I lost two years of my
life to anorexia that I
will never have the
chance to live again.
Life is too precious to
waste on an ED.

November 11, 1997

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Kimberly Cromwell

22

There is far too little public
under-standing of eating
disorders. Often, people
believe our struggle is a
choice. Rather, it is an
addiction, a disease, our only
sense of control. Find someone
who is supportive and well
educated on eating disorders
and the struggle involved.

November 11, 1997

 

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Rachael Murphy

19

It’s not worth
losing everything
to become nothing.

January 25, 1998

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Ida E.

29

It took me so long to finally figure
out that the armor I am using to
protect myself…is in fact a weapon
that is slowly killing me. Today I am
choosing to cast away the “armor”
of bulimia and reside within the
fortresses of life. I pray that God will
see me through this. I know He will.

January 25, 1998

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Lori Jean S.

21

Don’t stay in this place
too long. They will crawl
inside your shoes. They
will eat your from inside.
They will make you play

to lose.

January 25, 1998

 

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Molly Mossey

16

Shoot for the moon
and even if you don’t
reach it, you will land
amongst the stars!

February 8, 1998

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Lara D.

18

I think the most valuable thing
that I continue to learn about
my struggle with anorexia and
bulimia is that my life is, in fact,
very precious. Let yourself be
loved, and let yourself live. Your
life is a gift. Feel love, find your
wings, and set yourself free.

February 8, 1998

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Betsy German

47

I was hopeless for so long,
but now I’ve had almost
eleven years of true recovery.
Keep trying. Recovery is
there for you!

February 9, 1998

 

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Gina Castagnozzi

14

To overcome an eating disorder
is just about the hardest thing I
ever had to do.  I feel for every
one who ever had to go through
this horrible disease.  Know that
if you want to get better, you
really can do it, but if you want
to die, no one can stop you.
Remember that God is watching
out  for you.

March 1, 1998

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Rachel Quast

23

No matter what pain
you feel, know you
are worth all honor!

March 1, 1998

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Laura W.

19

I am not free yet.  I have only
just begun my healing.  I
decided I can’t fight this myself
anymore.  Getting help doesn’t
mean you’ve given up.  It means
you have the strength to beat it.
I may fall, I may stumble, I may
get lost, but my passion for
getting better will always get me
back on the right track again.  I
will fight this, I will fight this.

March 1, 1998

 

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Virginia Lee Benish

17

I have lost six years of precious life to bulimia.
Although I continue to fight every day (and
sometimes I don’t win), I have realized my only
revenge is survival! I want to thank Rogers
Memorial Hospital for putting the sun back in
my sky and showing me abstinence is possible.
Mostly I want to tell my mommy,”Thank you
for saving my life.”

March 28, 1998

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Crystal Tears

18

“The mystery of pain.  Pain has an
element of blank; it cannot recollect
when it began, or if there was a day
when it was not.  It has no future but
itself, it’s infinite realms contain it’s
past, enlightened to perceive new
periods of pain.”-Emily Dickinson
“Pretty is never beautiful”-Tori Amos

March 29, 1998

 

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Karen K.

37

I’ve been bulimic since 15.
Someone here wrote, “If
you are still alive, then God
hasn’t given up on you.” I’m
not sure why, but I know I’m
here through the Grace of
God and I continue to pray
for a miracle. Lord, give us
the strength to persevere.

May 17, 1998

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Laci Snyder

17

I am a recovering anorexic. I
truly believe if you have faith in
the Lord you to can begin the
road to recovery. This will not be
an easy road, but just remember
to never give up. God loves you
for who you are. You can become
a strong, healthy person if you
only leave everything you’re
feeling up to the Lord. Trust me,
you will make it. God Bless!!

May 17, 1998

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Marisa Pizzano

21

When things get tough,
turn to God for help.
He will see you through
the pain. Life is worth
living. All of us have to
believe that we will over
come this. You can do it!

May 18, 1998

 

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Nancy Viscovich

28

I once thought I was recovered.
Although I look good and feel
better, relapses occur. But now
I know it takes a tough person
to battle ED, someone tough
and strong like us.
We can do it!

May 22, 1998

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Keri G.

18

To overcome the fears
and frustrations you
experience throughout
your journey, you
must first begin by
believing in yourself.

May 22, 1998

star1Monique MatthewsI survived and with the
grace of God and the
love of those around you,
it can be beaten! (((hugs)))
Remember that you are
beautiful no matter what
anyone says. Beauty is
found within.May 25, 1998

 

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Jean Bull

29

I am sad at my past, but has made me
fight. I have fought all of my life. I am
now owning up to my eating disorder
that has helped me cope all these years.
I now accept it’s time to get help.  If
anyone see’s this out there, do the same,
seek help. Life is worth living, we just
have to figure out how.

June 21, 1998

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Amanda Griggs

17

I am ready to beat anorexia. I have been
in treatment and hospitalized before. I am
determined to let it work this time. I am now
working to regain myself. There is no use
letting this disease beat me, I will beat it. I
am a survivor so far and I hope to continue
to get better.  I have good days and bad days
but I just hope that soon I will have more
good than bad days.

June 24, 1998

 

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Eva M.

22

I’m starting therapy next
week…I’m terrified of it,
but have so much hope
that I will get a grip on
this…I will not let the ED
win this battle.

July 15, 1998

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Christina Moore

20

“When you saw only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you.”-Margaret
Fishback Powers.  The world of anorexia
is a very lonely, dark, and cold place to be.
Let the light shine and give you warmth.
Accept and love yourself. Recovery is
your life. Reach out for it, grab it, and
never let it go.

July 15, 1998

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Julie Rohmann

15

“I can do all things
through God who
gives me strength.”

-Phil. 4:13

July 15, 1998

 

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Kerri Lynn Curran

21

“Live life today, yesterday
is gone and tomorrow may
never come.” I guess what
I have learned through my
recovery is that it is so
difficult! Most of all,
believe in yourself!

September 10, 1998

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Andrea McDowell

23

“Let there be beauty and strength,power
and compassion, honour and humility,
mirth and reverence within you. And
you who seek to know Me, know that
your seeking and yearning will avail
you not, unless you know the Mystery;
for if that which you seek, you you find
not within yourself, you will never find it
without.” -Charge of the Goddess

September 10, 1998

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Amy Kechter

25

Feel the fear and
do it anyways!

September 10, 1998

 

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Amber Mitcheson

17

Everything in your life happens
for a reason. The trials you go
through are for a reason. God
sends you those for you to
recover thus making all of us
stronger  individuals. If I could
do it, trust me anyone can.

November 15, 1998

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Danielle Dubay

19

“My hands are small, I know – but
they’re not yours, they are my own
and I’m never broken…” God put me
on this earth for a reason, and it was
not to kill myself with anorexia or
bulimia! I deserve to live! And I am
going to live life to it’s fullest and just
enjoy being me while I am on earth!

November 16, 1998

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Jessi Andrus

16

There are some things
you feel like you won’t
get through. If you reach
out for that extra help,
you can get through it.
Don’t ever think you
are alone!!!

November 16, 1998

 

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Heather Jacobson

16

For the first time in months, I have
began to think and see clearly once
again.  I have made the decision to
take my life back and I’m not going
to let anorexia or bulimia hold me
down any longer. Any one else who
is suffering or who is in critical
condition from an ED you are in my
prayers. Good luck to you all.

December 13, 1998

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Erin Carter

14

At the end of every
rainstorm, there is
always a rainbow!

December 13, 1998

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Holly Winzler

33

Now finishing year two of recovery. It’s
hard work, but every moment that’s
mine–and not consumed by ED-related
thoughts–is a victory. The next
important step in my recovery journey
will be to share my feelings more and
lean on people more. Admitting my
fear, hurt and loneliness when I need to
is my New Year’s Resolution for 1999.

December 15, 1998

 

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Jessickah Lough

18

“God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot
change, courage to change
the things I can, and wisdom
to know the difference.”

January 7, 1999

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Kristi Marie Patzman

16

Anorexia is my battle and my battle
alone and I will survive! I would like
to say thanks to two very important
people. Diana, thanks for putting up
with me and helping me. K. Shiffren,
thanks for giving me that extra push
to accept help. Shauna, thanks for
helping me. I love you guys like
crazy!! There will be relapses, but
I will become a survivor.

January 8, 1999

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Chrissy Seredy

19

“And you wake up to realize
your standard of living some
how got stuck on survive.”
-Jewel. Sometimes it’s all
you can do inorder to live
May you have the courage
and strength to win this war.

January 8, 1999

 

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Shelia R.

28

I know my recovery can only
be found in God. “I can do
all things through Christ who
strengthens me.”-Phil. 4:13

February 18, 1999

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Jennifer Heathcock

16

I have been dealing with anorexia
my whole life and have been very
uncertain of it. I feel that now it is
time for me to get help and I believe
that if I make the first step so can
anyone else. Have faith and you will
make it.  I pledge that dying is not
the way to go. I will try my hardest.

February 18, 1999

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Toni Castaneda

15

Never give up,
keep strong!
You’re worth it.

February 18, 1999

 

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Mary Crawley

18

Every day you tell yourself that, “this will
be the last day”…but the next day…it’s the
same thing over again. Just remember to
stay strong and remember that we eat to
live, not live to eat…I thank the Lord for
the strength He gave me to conquer my
eating disorder…if I can do it – anybody
can!!! Keep your head high and always
remember…it’s what’s on the inside
that counts!

February 28, 1999

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Tracey Sekula

33

If you believe, you can achieve! I am survivor and
I am proud of it! I would like to thank my guardian
angel Paul Salamy Jr. and his family for all their
love, support and patience with me during the rough
times when I did not believe in myself. It was your
belief in me that has helped me find true happiness!
I once was lost, lonely and down, but two years
later I am happy, successful and proud that I am
alive and still around. I found the greatest love of
all within me!

February 28, 1999

 

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Amber Osgood

19

“Learn to get in touch with the silence
within yourself and know that everything
in this life has a purpose, there are no
mistakes, no coincidences, all events
are blessings given to us to learn from.”
This quote helps me to understand there
is a reason for my anorexia. There is a
cure and I know I will find it…it just
takes time…luck to you all…love ya.

May 2, 1999

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Denise Hansen

27

Your life is worth fighting for! I turn twenty-eight
on May 8 and can hardly believe it–though I
don’t feel this way every day, I can honestly
say that today, I’m happy to be alive. Thank
you God, and all my family and friends for
helping me help me. Thanks to Baptist EDU.
Thanks Sharron W and Dr. C., and thanks
Nani you are never forgotten.

May 5, 1999

 

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Angie Hardy

23

If I could take the pain,
torment and torture of
anorexia away from every
one of you, I would. Please
fight the battle till you are
free and have faith in God.

May 5, 1999

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Nicole Reed

13

I am a survivor. It took time and lots of hard
work, but I made it. But for some reason I
am unhappy now. I feel like I want to go
back. I guess it is because I had control
then and I don’t now. I know it might sound
crazy but I hate being healthy. It just brings
me down even more than I already am.  I
would like to congratulate everyone else on
there recoveries though and to everyone
else keep working on it.

May 6, 1999

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Carolyn Ramseyer

37

I am a survivor of an eating
disorder. We can fight this.
I’m in a battle of not eating
every day. Every day that
we survive, the world is a
better place.

May 6, 1999

 

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Adrian D.

17

Aimee is right, there is no good time
to start recovery, so to anyone reading
this with an eating disorders, please
stop–somehow find the courage and the
strength; lean on your friends and be not
afraid of their reactions-if their love to
you is true,they will stay by your side
and help you through this. May all of you
find your inner strength that makes each
and every one of you beautiful.

August 24, 1999

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Susan Curtis

17

As much as it scares me
to give up my eating
disorder, I refuse to let
my life be snuffed out by
this horrible thing. I’m
going to beat it one day.

August 25, 1999

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Jaime Korwin

17

“Everyday is nothing but a
stress to me, I’m constantly
running from reality chasing
dreams.”-Fred Durst
There is always hope, don’t
live in a false reality.

August 27, 1999

 

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Felicity Osborn

18

I’m fighting hard. I’m going
to find the strength to survive.
I think beating my anorexia
and bulimia isn’t a right, it’s
a privlege.  I’ll win it some
day I hope.

September 15, 1999

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Sarah Gay

20

My fear is not that this demon kills me, but
rather that it consumes me for the rest of
my life. Judy, you are my utmost inspiration.
Your strength is proof that this is a mere
passing ship in the torrential waters. Mom,
you are my everything and I owe you my
life. I am so sorry for putting you through
this hell. You are my guardian angel on earth.
Thank you both for loving me so much.

September 17, 1999

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Jennifer Gang

16

Recovery is like a hard
obstacle to overcome,
but once you succeed
you can do anything.

September 18, 1999

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Kerri Deschaine

20

The only way to truly love
someone else, is to learn to
love yourself. Although it
may be hard, it is well worth
doing because you will find
someone to support you in
everything you do.
Congratulations to all and
good luck.

December 21, 1999

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Nelson Jackson

19

When I was in my darkest hours
with this demon, I thought recovery
didn’t exist. But now after seven
years, I have now been in recovery
for four months. It has not been
easy, but I have decided to live
without my bulimia. I can dance
freely now.

December 21, 1999

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Patricia Gray

32

I do not walk this road alone,
God is there to carry me all
the way. “I can do all things
through Christ who gives me
strength”-Philippians 4:13
To beat this hold onto Christ
and let Him carry you.

December 21, 1999

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Jackie R.

18

I came here two years ago thinking
I had recovered, I am here yet again
fighting these demons in my head. It
is scarier this time, but I still know
I can overcome it. I am still alive,
that means God has not given up on
me. “So we beat on, boats against
the current, born ceaselessly into
the past.”-F. Scott Fitzgerald.

February 25, 2000

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Lori B.

17

“I was always dying to be thin.
Then I was dying and I forgot
to live.” Now, I am finally
learning how to live. I’ve
learned the impossible is
possible. No one deserves
this disease, keep fighting!

February 26, 2000

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Karina Przyjemski

15

“Yesterday is history,
tomorrow is a mystery,
today is a gift, that’s
why they call it the
present.

February 27, 2000

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Katie Becraft

19

Things can get better…
I’m proof of that.  I
have learned that the
untouchable can be
reached…strive for it.

April 11, 2000

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Michelle Day

29

No matter what we
do, we are still
worth fighting for.

April 12, 2000

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Carolyn V.

29

It’s been three years since I recovered
from seven long years of struggling to
get over anorexia. I am so healthy now,
vibrant, full of living. When I look back
at those years of pain…everything is
such a blur. My sadness and insecurities
created such a loss. I feel as if I had to
be reborn, and now I don’t let anything
get in the way of my being free.

April 12, 2000

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Rosemarie Sax

19

No matter what, don’t
give up. To beat this
horrible disease is a
wonderful feeling. But
you’re not ever out of
the woods.

April 19, 2000

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Samantha Buffum

32

Everyday I see the ugliness beheld
in my own eyes, and wish for a cure.
Just to wake up and see the beauty
God created when molding me, but
I refuse to stop searching…for I
know someday inner beauty will be
my strength and reward.

April 20, 2000

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Kris Hurley

32

Love and acceptance are gifts.
If you allow yourself to give
this gift not only to others, but
also to yourself, you will find it
reflected in the eyes and hearts
of those that look upon you, and
in turn you will find the gift
returned to you.

April 22, 2000

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Sandra Damota

19

This may sound really bad, but the proudest
moment in my life was going to the washroom
on my own…after five years of laxative abuse
and two years of recovery. You’d be amazed
at what makes you happy after all those years
of sadness.  Love your body…because it is the
only one you’ll ever have.

September 20, 2000

prayer

Vinni Cras

21

Just received so many positive vibes
from the wall…it’s time to stop living,
eating, sleeping and drinking food
and fat. If I cannot be Kate Moss,
I’ll be the best Vinni there is! Take
care all, may us all be free from the
hold of this demon.

September 21, 2000

prayer

Toni Castaneda

17

Keep strong. I am still
holding on while fighting
since I was thirteen.
“Never fear shadows, it
only means there is a
light shining somewhere
nearby.”

September 22, 2000

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Amanda French

20

“I will never leave you nor forsake
you…” says the Lord. And He has
never left me in my eating disorder
or anytime. He is my strength and
rock that I stand on. Run to Him
and draw strength from Him, He
can uphold you in His arms of love.

October 26, 2000

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Lauren Wall

20

It is God’s grace that
I am alive. He is the
reason I have had
victory! Praise His
name!

October 26, 2000

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Lidia S.

16

I’m trying so hard to beat it and I’m
on my way, but beating anorexia and
bulimia is not easy. Nobody is perfect;
always remember that you are special,
you are you. Never be ashamed of it
and never think that you are alone. I
believe in myself and here I make a
promise I will beat it and come back to
a normal life. I know I can make it and
I will. I will!

October 27, 2000

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Sandie Garcia

15

I never thought I could sign this wall. I’m
only fifteen. In the past three years I’ve
learned more and been through more than
I ever thought possible. As a recovered
bulimic, I can honestly say that getting
better is possible. I’ve been through it
all and I know how it is. There are people
around you that care and believe in you.
Please, if you’re reading this and have an
eating disorder, there’s hope…never give up.

October 30, 2000

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Nicole Henne

19

Because I am still on the road to  recovery
after three years, I honestly believe the
“victim” in me will be overcome. Thank
you to my dearest friend Mrs. Roberts
whom I love very much and think about
every day, you honestly saved my life. I
know that I was truly blessed with you as
my angel. With love and hope for the
survivors on this wall and others out t
here.

November 2, 2000

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Bri D.

17

“God grant me the serenity to accept
the things I cannot change. Courage
to change the things I can, and wisdom
to know the difference.”  I can’t change
the fact that this happened to me, but I
can change to help myself and get better.
I will not let this hurt me anymore, I am
going to fight.

February 15, 2001

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Melissa V.

23

We are all beautiful people
and deserve to live! I want
to live and I am taking the
steps necessary. Stay strong
and take that first step.

February 19, 2001

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Debbie Fochs

28

Someone told me that I needed
to find something that I loved
more than my anorexia/bulimia
and then I would be able to
move forward.  That someone
was my boyfriend. Now I’m
recovering for myself.

February 19, 2001

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Jennifer Fournier

15

The first step in recovery
is learning to love yourself
and realizing that what you
are doing to your body is
not worth it. It’s a long hard
road to recovery but never
give up.

May 16, 2001

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Lorie Adler

35

Every day is a struggle and
yet a blessing. I live for
each moment and for my
boys Chase and Ian. Don’t
give up recovery is possible.
It’s your journey. You were
born free and happy.

May 17, 2001

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Carrie Anne B.

13

I am battling anorexia and bulimia.
Never will I give up and reading
all these messages has given me
a new sense of hope. I pray others
will read them too and take steps
to get help. Never give up faith
or hope. You can be strong if you
believe.

May 17, 2001

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Shawna Kuhl

25

I just want someone out
there to know I care. We
are all in this together. I
have been struggling for
almost ten years and will
continue to fight because
of you.

August 8, 2001

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Allison M.

17

“Out of suffering have emerged
the strongest souls; the most
massive characters are seared
with scars.” -E.H. Chapin.
“Confront the dark parts of
yourself and work to banish them
with illumination and forgiveness.
Your willingness to wrestle with
your demons will cause your
angels to sing.”-Angus Wilson

 

dove

Amanda Hitchcock

23

Recovery is a long, often
laborious process. I am still
recovering. I would never
have even made it this far,
though, if it weren’t for
God, Jesus Christ, and my
earthly angel, my mom.

August 11, 2001

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Lindsey Berger

18

Don’t look at people in the
light, close your eyes and feel
them from within. Your body
is only a shell which houses
your soul-who you really are.
Always remember that.

October 30, 2001

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Courtney R.

20

It takes twenty-one days to form
a habit. It takes the rest of your
life to break it. An eating disorder
is not a sin, it is a disease and it
has a cure. The cure lies within
ourselves and within those who
love us. Find your angel who was
sent here to save you.

October 30, 2001

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Karen White

29

There’s so much more to life than fat
grams, exercise and self-hate. Weeks
go by without knowing my weight. I don’t
know the number of calories I ate or
burned and I don’t care. I look and feel
great. I hike, kayak, garden, float, read,
sing, listen, look and enjoy life. I can
snuggle with my husband and not care if
this part of me is hanging out or firm. It
just keeps getting better.

October 31, 2001

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Maria Vallarino

23

I will never give up. I will
keep on fighting for life.
Fighting for recovery. No
matter how hard it gets, I
will never give up.

November 29, 2001

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Michelle G.

“Optimism is the faith that leads to achievement;
nothing can be done without hope;”-Helen Keller
All one needs is a little hope, and a little help.
No berating and hurtful questioning of eating
habits-someone to just stand by your side and
help get you through how you feel. That was my
first step to recovering, it’s a long road, but the
journey is worth it to get me back.

November 30, 2001

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Kate Morris

20

Turning over new leaves
and a new life. It’s my
time now, I will no longer
let this nasty thing rule
my life. This is my life
and I want it back!

November 30, 2001

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Lindsay Stafford

17

You are worth it, so
am I.  I am going
to keep fighting.

January 21, 2002

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Jo W.

17

The journey of a thousand miles begins
with a single step. Take that first step,
it’s more than worth it. I’m going through
the throws of recovery right now. I’m not
there yet, but proud to be on the way. My
life has changed so much since I first
started taking steps. I can finally accept
that not only life is worth living, but my
life is worth living.

January 24, 2002

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Diane D.

31

My recovery has given me wisdom,
with wisdom comes courage. Thank
you to all those who have helped
me in that wisdom and courage
while on my journey of recovery.
Some will stay, while others had
to leave but each of you will leave
footprints in my heart.

January 26, 2002

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Laura Guarascio

16

Recovery is a long, hard road that I’ve only just
begun. But I believe that I can and will make it to
the end of this road and be happy and healthy
again. And no matter what you think or your
eating disorder says to you, if I can do it,
anyone can. Do not let this thing beat you…you
are better than it, and life is more precious
than that.

February 12, 2002

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Rebecca Sheriff

23

Whenever I am alone I hear that voice that
tells me I am useless and ugly. This keeps
happening to me. I get well and then relapse
again. I will not give up though. I will be
strong and pray for the support I need. I
will take it one day at a time and survive; I
have before and will again.

February 12, 2002

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Christine Attard

25

You can if you think you can,
there is a whole new life after
an eating disorder. It’s a long
and winding road but there is
a light at the end of the
tunnel you are in.

July 1, 2002

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Amanda R.

16

I never thought I had a problem
because I was just making my life
better.  It’s not worth it people.
God loves you and He made you
beautiful so just live for Him.
Love y’all.

July 1, 2002

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Heather B.

17

“If disease is a mirror of consciousness, then
to fight disease is to fight ourselves; to flee
from disease is to flee from ourselves; to
succumb is to give up on ourselves.”
-Vivian King
With the help of loving, caring angels in my
life and by using my inner strength I am surviving
this illness and slowly ridding myself of the
physical and emotional pain. Please don’t give
up.  You, too, can fight it and win. There is so
much happiness, love and peace to experience
if you will  just allow yourself to recover.

July 1, 2002

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Diane Desmarais

30

The Anniversary.  This is my special year
you see.. I am 10 years in recovery! I would
not have made it this far if I had never set
my spirit free.. I have twelve little angels in
my life, this too shows me how wonderful
recovery can be. I live each day with the joy
of watching them grow and that they will
always know how much their Auntie loves
them so.

December 26, 2002

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Amelia Milton

18

I have made it! Finally after four years of
suffering and two admittances into hospital,
I have come through my mental illness of
anorexia nervosa. I have written a novel
of my experiences titled “One Meal at a
Time.” Thank you God and everyone else
who has helped me through this terrible
time in my life.

February 20, 2003

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Robyn Hunter

29

I have never felt so full of emptiness or
so devoid of fullness than when I have
been in my deepest suffering with
anorexia. This illness is hell on earth,
but I am on my way back, indeed, from
this personal hell. You can join me..you
never deserved to be here in the first
place, my sweetest loves. Thank you,
Dr. S…perhaps you have never known
you were my messiah already.

February 21, 2003

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Agnes Ollikainen

26

I just want you to know that I am still
suffering from bulimia(12 years). I
have a beautiful daughter, a handsome
husband and money, all you want.
What I don’t have is me. I barely
remember her, but she used to be
beautiful and happy. I am not! and I
wish this monster would go away and
give her back to me. I don’ t want to
be short lived, like a butterfly.

March 3, 2003

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Erin Esch

20

I believe in myself so
I will fight everyday
to obtain my full
recovery.

August 24, 2003

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Michele Faith Andrews

23

I’m still struggling and the battle isn’t
over yet for me. But I have to believe
that I will win and reclaim me from this.
I am taking a stand and declaring my
independence because I know that my
future is worth fighting for. “You have
delivered my soul from death, my eyes
from tears, and my feet from  falling. I
will walk before the Lord  in the land
of the living.” Psalm 116: 8-9

August 25, 2003

 

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Laurie Glass

38

Psalm 94:18-19 describes my journey
to the freedom from anorexia I received
from God on August 24, 2003. “When I
said, ‘My foot is slipping,’ Your love, O
Lord, supported me. When anxiety was
great within me, Your consolation brought
joy to my soul.”  Freedom is worth every
day of fighting, every weary moment and
every tear shed on the healing journey.

August 29, 2003

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Brittany Reineke

15

“God grant me the serenity to accept
the things I cannot change.” I can’t
change how I look, but I can change
who I am and so can you. I am
recovering from and eating disorder
and though it is hard, I am getting
through it…if you are suffering,
trust me, talk to someone you
trust.  It is hard to do alone!

December 18, 2003

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Cristina Ranalli

15

Nobody asks for anorexia, it just happens.
It doesn’t evolve overnight, it creeps into
your mind. It’s like you’re an insect
unknowingly crawling into a spider’s web.
One second it’s innocently crawling, and
the next it’s caught Some get out, some
don’t. I fought, conquered,and kicked @$$.
The battle is still going on, but I’m
stronger than I ever was, and I will keep
fighting, so should you.

December 19, 2003

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Yinka Nolan

18

“Give peace a chance, let that be
enough.” I saw this on the wall in
my room when I was in a psych
hospital. It kept me strong and
lead me to the beauty of the world.
For now I’m “living life like a
firecracker, lighting up the night
sky and going out with a bang.”

December 23, 2003

 

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Elise Montgomery

18

The past. You can either run from
it or learn from it. I’ve been trying
to run from it and not look back
since I was 16. With my support
system, hopefully I’ll learn from it
and overcome my anorexia, OCD,
and depression sometime soon.

June 30, 2004

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Katia E.

14

Recovery really does exist and it’s
not something that ‘lucky’ people
stumble upon. It’s a very real and
hard thing to do, but it’s more worth
it than anything you will do for the
rest of your life. There is one thing
you need to try hard to be: Strong.
And you need to fight this thing,
because it isn’t you.

July 1, 2004

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Kayla Kramer

17

Eating disorders change your life completely.
It is not something that happened to me
overnight and I didn’t fix it overnight. It has
become easier for me with everyone’s
support, but also it has helped me tons
knowing I have to do this for myself and
no one else. This long journey including
the up and down days make survivor’s
even stronger in the end,
and I will be one.

July 6, 2004

 

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Karri Wells

22

I was sick and tired of being sick and
tired so I took my life into my own hands
and overcame my “monster”. It was the
most difficult period of my life, but at the
same time it was the best. I finally let
myself become a woman, and I figured
out who I was. I have never been happier,
and it feels damn good to be alive again.

August 2, 2004

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Josephine Miller

23

I never thought I’d be where I am now! It was
the longest and rockiest I’ve ever taken. Now,
five years later, I couldn’t be happier! Let God
into your heart, and He will help to heal your
pain. Look to others that have this same disease.
These people will understand you, and help you
to your path of freedom. I am praying for you!
Don’t ever give up! God Bless!

August 4, 2004

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Amy Stolki

26

I was born for a reason, I was sent
down from God, as an angel. An
angel with a mission to help others.
I may have been through twelve
years of both eating disorders, but
I made it. I recovered because I was
born to this earth with a purpose.
I am recovered, as an angel.

August 4, 2004

 

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Therese Lorraine Jose

17

I was once fat and recently recovered
from self-injury. I noticed that I’m not
the only one who’s harmed. People
around me are also bothered with my
condition. So, I survived y’all!!!

December 23, 2004

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Jessica T.

15

Because I was weak at times it
does not mean I have failed. When
I scream for God and nothing
happens, it does not mean he is
not there. He will always come
through. I will try my best to
recover and survive.

December 26, 2004

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Anne K.

28

Recovery is the longest journey but so worth it.
I’ve been through the mill and it’s now time to live
life and enjoy it. I couldn’t have done it alone and
neither I feel can anybody. What I realize now is
that I deserve the best out of life and that life can
be wonderful.  I don’t need to punish myself
anymore. Goodbye eating disorder, you are not
all you promise, though you were my companion.

December 30, 2004

 

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Melanie Rose

17

Television, fashion, magazines and the
rest of the world against us. Make sure
that there will be a tomorrow for you,
because there is more than one way to
lose weight, and having an eating disorder
isn’t one. So I give you blessings, from
me to you. Recover, it’s not worth dying
and losing what you already have.

January 8, 2005

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Sarah Crutwell

13

Admitting that I had a problem and
talking to people about it had to be
the hardest thing I’ve ever had to
do.  But there’s no point trying to
kid yourself. It was hard but its so
worth it. I wouldn’t still be here if
it wasn’t for the help of my friends
and family. Keep fighting it.

January 14, 2005

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Jessica C.

27

I can make the right choices. I
can move on and become the
lady I am supposed to be instead
of someone controlled by food. I
can become who I am meant by
God to be instead of the hideous
image I always see…He sees me
perfect…already.

January 17, 2005

 

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Rosemary H.

17

Steal back this life so stolen.
Free yourself from webs she’s
woven. Fight, for what, you
know not yet. Slip the shackles
before they set.

February 23, 2005

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Emma Hackney

19

My key nurse gave this to me during my recovery
from anorexia. Please remember that you’re all
beautiful – inside and out, and one day I hope that
you too can see that. “If I could give you my eyes
just for a moment to see you as I do…then maybe
you would see for yourself this great person who
matters so much to all who have the privilege of
knowing her.” Big Hugs to you all.

February 23, 2005

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Jessica Lennon

26

I’ll never stop fighting my
way through the dark and
when I’m free, I will pass
a candle to the next person
so they too can find their
way out. And one by one we
will all see the sunrise.

February 23, 2005

 

rosest

Claire Scott-Douglas

19

I still sometimes wonder how I have made
it to this point. Somewhere I never thought
I could be. I have struggled, but I have
fought for my life and I have won. Trust
and believe in yourself that you can do it,
and do it only for you. Never give up.

July 12, 2005

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Jennifer P.

32

“If you always do what you
always did, you’ll always
get what you always got.”

July 12, 2005

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Kelly B.

22

I never thought fighting anorexia
would be so hard, but that makes
the victory over this disease so
much sweeter. To know that you
have fought and won is success
beyond measure. Remember, the
goal is progress – not perfection.

July 15, 2005

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